Audrey's Blog:D (damn professional title!)

2011-01-18T00:43:00.004+08:00

To the only boy who has ever managed to give him a box of hearts.

Albeit it stops at 112 (I think) and is yet to be completed.

SUPEEEEEEEERBOY! ♥

Anyw okay got caught up texting here's your message. I lazy to write letter so type out. HAAAAAI SANNIE I WILL MISS YOU ALOT ALOT ALOT WHEN YOU GO CANADA, PLEASE DON'T CALL ME UP IF YOU END UP GETTING LOCKED UP IN A LOCKER IN YOUR SCHOOL BECAUSE AS I SAID BEFORE, I TOLD YOU SO. I hope you'll have a good (note: good, not GREAT) time there, and have fun (note: not ALOT of fun) because I know I wouldn't here in SG without you and I want you to feel the same way too because I can't go over to Canada so I want you to come back if you're not having fun there okay. PLEASE COME BACK EVERY WEEKEND TO VISIT OKAAAY! Shit I'll miss bitching with you and watching you scare people off at macs just within a short timeframe of an hour. I'll miss your ultra gayness, gossip, bitching sessions, omg-how-to-deal-with-this-guy rejection talks, AND YOU HAVEN'T SEEN ME CLIMB SIAAAA )): are you taking the scarf and poster I made of you over? PLEASE BRING IT ALONG!! DDDDDD': I'll really cry if you don't ): thanks for being such a twit cousin who's so freaking aa with your piercings and dyed hair and try to act pai kia but fail so badly because you probably just come off as some immature kid HAHAHAHA but I still love you!! As much as you love me!!:):) One day when you come back we'll east steamboat tgt again okay, then YOU CAN HELP PEEL PRAWNS FOR ME HAHAHAHAHA AND STOP EATING THEM BY YOURSELF and shit I'm starting to tear abit while typing this alr remember that time sec1 when you helped me get his email add cos of some scandal I wanted to clear, then you were there when we were tgt not tgt kinda thing, and you were there for me at 1-2am when I told you I suddenly miss.. yeah haha. Oh yar haven't told you about E yet hahahaha two more years la okay hahaha I hope you get to find a pretty hot and chio angmoh girlfriend there okay then i can be her awesum cousin in law :D:D I really really wish you weren't going overseas, I hope you'll come back like every six months or sthg just to drop by and say hi. You can't spend CNY, Christmas, don't know funny gl concert days with me anymore, can't go out with nieloh and I, can't be some damn immature kid who goes qiuqiu ni wo keyi yao wu kuai qian ma. You still haven't told me about her siol. I spent quite a number of days with you, for someone who left sec school early hahahaa and I'm very grateful for that hahaha. One of the fondest memories was chilling at starbucks last year and having S's impression of me degrading by damn alot sia. and eating at pastamania and having you wait for me while you mugged at macs after openhouse. then there was also the time we would go 18 chefs to eat after school, me ponning cca most of the time. remember the time you met the-other-e at the airport? so ironic that it was when we weren't close anymore that you got to meet him. I was studying with the now e at the airport and the other e and you called. such a small world:/ but oh well, you got to meet the now e and I'm very happy you did, two superboys of my life meeting each other hahaha. you always act so immature and jerkish but I know you actually care alot about people ESPECIALLY ME and you love me the most, right? I'LL MISS YOU!! (I already do.) ))))))))))): I'll miss sharing chinese songs with you, taking gl epic photos, going to your house for christmas, talking to you at 2am in the toilet about stupid stuff, going to family dinners with you and yadayada stuff that my brain can't process at freaking 12.30am right now. I'm so hungry. Your family doesn't celebrate birthdays with you and i had to go to your frontdoor celebrate it for you last year although it was a damn epic fail surprise but I promise to call you this year in case you miss us okay? because I WILL MISS YOU THE MOSTEST ON YOUR BIRTHDAY )))): I'll call from VJ so alotalotalot of people you know will be able to talk to you. :D have a happy 17th okay, I hope you'll be celebrating it with alot of new friends there. (as a special request please call me on my birthday too because that'll be the best birthday ever and i'll really love you for life if you do.) don't let them bully you cos of your size okay, if they do anything to you just tell them hi. Every problem can be solved with a HI, I'M AARON, CAN WE BE FRIENDS? +nice smile+ I miss you already you stupid jerk. Come back asap okay? I'm going to see you in 8hr's time but it alr seems so.. goodbye-ish now. Don't worry I'll take good care of myself in Singapore although every single one of you superboys left me because one got taken by Singapore, the other taken away by Canada wtszxzxz. SEE LA HOW. No one to bitch to alr. TT TAKE CARE IN CANADA OKAAAAY!♥ They don't have milo dinosaurs and pratas thererererezxzxzx howwwwww!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH. 8 more hours. ):

2011-01-16T00:42:00.001+08:00

GRAVICAL.

7th of 64, Novice Women.

17th out of 24, Intermediate Women.

Thr'll always be room for improvement.

Allez everyone :)

2010-12-30T22:54:00.002+08:00

I just blogged to say that joining Climbing has been the best choice I've ever made in the whole two years of being in VJ. :)

You don't get to find CCAs that allow even IP kids to join competitions, where there's no IP and JC divide, and have awesuuuuum encouraging kuku seniors. (besides the fact that my neck currently hurts and my flapper hasn't healed and finguuurs are numb teehee :D.)

(Y)

Okay end of year post done.

Anyw no matter what, allez climbers (cos I know some of you read this blog hahaha) I'm still supeeeer giganormous proud of you guys no matter what the results would be like for Gravical :):)

& seriously?

I'm more afraid of Novice than Inter.

Cos I have set expectations for myself in Novice but not for Inter. Just going to funclimb.

No matter what just do your best !yaaaayy +big wide grin+

Can't wait, exactly 2 more weeks!!:D:D

2011, Best foot forward baby. 8D

2010-11-20T01:36:00.004+08:00

This is my 600th post. I found this on FYL and chose to make it the 600th post. It really made me.. haha the feeling's indescribable. It's truly meaningful.

& I've been posting on my tumblr recently.

A Little Bit of a Love Rant

I think of love the same way I think of 8th grade. I miss that year like hell, it was so simple; so perfect. Sometimes, I wish I could just crawl into the comfort of it again, and shield myself from the troubles of high school. But I know in my heart that moving on and gaining new experiences is far more important. That’s how guys are, ya know? Or girls, if thats your preference. You look back on them, and you think, “Damn that was awesome. I miss that. I really fucking miss that.” But would you really just want to stay in the safety of it all over again? Would you want to relive those months or years? No, I don’t think so. My best friend has a new boyfriend, his name is Robert. He’s fantastic, everything even I would want in a guy, and she knows how lucky she is. She is falling fast and hard. But two years ago, her boyfriend of nearly 10 months cheated on her during Spring Break. His name was T.J., and he shattered her heart into pieces.

His apologies were sincere. He called her constantly, walked to her house every day, and tried desperately to make it up to her. She was happy…but that cloud was still there. In the end, they made a rough decision. Sitting down, they looked each other in the eyes, eyes they knew so well, and realized something. They had to let go. T.J. didn’t want the same fate as his brother: blowing off friends and experiences for the girl friend he was so hopelessly in love with. His words were, “I love you too much, Hannah. I know we will end up just like them. And I don’t want that for us.” So in a way, they loved each other enough to let go.

But like always, you still cling, and you cling hard. Hannah is happy, more than happy; T.J. is not. His girlfriend is great, but his longing for Hannah bores deeper into him each day. He regrets not his decision to let her go, but his first decision: the one that led to the second. He cheated. Yes, he cheated, but that doesn’t mean he didn’t love.

She talked to him yesterday, finally. She told him that she thought things over, and that she would always feel for him, but Robert was too important to her. She said that if fate had it for them, then they would work things out later. And she believes that.

So fate. Love. I’m not sure if i could put my belief into fate. I’ve loved the same guy for 9 months, and he has broken my heart more than once. It’s one of those pathetic things really. He’s just a friend, and to him, I am just this girl. But to me he is more than that. He’s an equal…that’s what I think we are looking for, not just in a relationship, but in a friendship as well. Someone who you feel is superior to you. “When you find someone you don’t think you deserve, you better try really fucking hard to make them yours.” My brother said that to me once, and ya know, he has a point. If your standards are where they should be, not any guy on the street will be good enough. And I hope you aren't shallow enough to base this off of looks: to think you are ugly, and that you don’t deserve the gorgeous boy in science class.

It’s deeper. This guy…he is different. He is smart, and mature, and he has the same grip on life that I do…or so I thought. Recently though, he fucked up pretty bad. His reasons are beyond me, and I don’t think I can understand this one. And he can’t understand how bothered I am by it, and explaining just gets me nowhere. I left school today I felt so sick about it. But you know? That’s life.

Ups and downs. I’m just really hoping that somehow I can find someone like him again; someone who sees me and goes, “Holy fuck.” That’s what we all need. Someone who gets weak at the knees, who sits by their phone all day craving your call or text. Someone who can’t get you out of their head, someone who cares for you beyond the normal care; they care for your happiness, your success, your well being. Someone who would take a bullet for you. For the people that have found it, congrats. You are so, so lucky. For the people that have their hearts broken…everyone will get there. Even those who I just called lucky. And it’s not because love sucks. No, people suck. We do. Every last goddamn one of us has human flaws, errors in our character that lead us down pretty shitty paths. You’re heart is broken? Just wait, soon you will break a heart. Soon you will kiss some random dude at a party, soon you will find yourself growing annoyed with your partner…falling out of love. Because that’s the point. We fall in love…then we fall out of love. Only to fall in love again. That’s what you need to reach the point where you really find the right one. All the others before are lessons…everyone is a lesson. You will know when you snag the final partner when he or she is a lover, a parent, a brother, and a child all in one. You have to care for them in every aspect imaginable: you must respect them like a parent, and know that they are just looking for the best for you. You must protect them like a sibling, and know that sometimes yeah…they are going to annoy the shit out of you but at the end of the day, they are still going to be under the same roof, and you are still going to love them. Like a child…that all encompassing love that makes you want to succeed for them…that makes you want to be the best you can be. And like a lover…someone you can completely give your heart to.

2010-11-12T23:04:00.002+08:00

Hi hi.

Just went out shopping for Monday and it was so :/ ): I had so many many billionzxzx of things to do!!

Just don't feel like going now. )':

It's just complicated, alright.

)': gna call K up to emozxzx to him.

just really don't feel like going now, what's the point.

anyw on a brighter note i'm going out with sannie and nieloh tmrw, zomgggg (L)!

and collecting my smexy polaroid films!:D

polaroid spam tmrw!!:)

afterall, if I don't go on Monday at least we can put the films to good use tmr. ~

2010-11-02T23:46:00.003+08:00

2010-10-20T00:12:00.002+08:00

because for once, i'd like to believe that things would go fine and i'd get what i deserve.

that i'm not so perfect as what you may think, and perhaps in each of us lie faint weaknesses.

afraid. ):

2010-09-06T00:38:00.002+08:00

ON HIATUS.

2010-08-19T00:24:00.003+08:00

study hard climb hard work hard believe smile have faith

~~play hard.~~

eoys.

SLEEP.

this is so what I need.

five hours worth of sleep daily is not enough.

I'm so numb to everything nowadays i can't really bother, it's just me getting adaptable to whatever life throws at me and getting suited to it, be it whether you care or not you just move on.

kinda hurt and pissed over some issue yesterday nevermind heh shan't waste my sleeping time by giving those stupid issues that aren't worth mentioning some air time. ):

In a way idk if just going with the flow is good- I'm not taking in anything much but just.. hell yeah okay whatevr -what gives- to everything, yno. but my mind's really so numb to all emotions that I think I'm beginning to feel like some absorbent sponge just taking in everything without a thought nor feelings attached.

A realisation struck me today-

I need to breathe.

yeah climbing and all keeps me preoccupied, and that makes me really happy, but that's not want I sometimes want. I want time for me, myself. Time when I can sit down and not worry about everything and anything else. That's just wishful thinking though, I'll never have (much) time for myself from now till eoys ends.

another issue that has been boggling me-

yno i really feel uncomfortable when someone treats you exceptionally nice, nicer than how you treat him/her because I never know how I reciprocate. It just makes me feel bad. ):

Just went for training, came back around an hour and half ago.

The past few days have made me think alot.. What I wanted to do for VJRC, for the team, the problems we're currently facing, and what I want from myself in terms of cca excellence :/.

NUS competition in 2 weeks 3 days is getting me preoccupied. I need to climb more, I need to train my endurance. Coach wants us todo core everyday (Dolphins, Crutches, Cycles x100 + Push Ups x30 + Pull up 7x3.) Did 7x1+10x2 pull ups today, I think I'm going to do pull ups during breaks from now on. Despite all factors, I want to enter the competition with no pressure. I want to do well. but & I need to balance my CCA days with studies.

dad seems kinda unsupportive of climbing taking away my studying time but he doesn't knw how much cca excellence is important as well. :/ so I'm going to drag them down for NUS qualifiers in two weeks to let them see what climbing's about. :) hopefully they'll be more understanding towards the hectic schedule I have. ):

Monday school ends late, Tues Weds Fri climbing, Thursday Sat free, Sunday go out.

First time ever (or first few times ever) while practically everyone was doing assessment books in class and discussing their answers I've yet to finish reading my notes for Physics one day before the test. Not used to it at all but it's an inevitable change. In the name of climbing, it's worth it :D

So exhausted, but still satisfied and happy. :)

Ohoh my back's aching now la keep on falling on my back during training better go rub it later teehee. :)

my feet's aching too cos joel stepped on me yesterday. think i hv a balaku now. ahahahah.

anyway anyway I've gotten my tickets to the 10h table tennis matches already YAAAYYY I'm so glad!!

can't wait can't wait can't wait!!

2010-08-14T01:25:00.005+08:00

"I'm sorry sometimes I get a little jealous, thinking that someone else could make you happier than I could. I guess it's my insecurities acting up. Because I'm not the prettiest, smartest, or most fun and exciting girl. But I do know that no matter how hard and long you look, you'll never find somebody that loves you like I did."

Love this quote to the max. :) Find someone that treats you right, because if he doesn't, you deserve someone so much better.

This blogpost is dedicated to Sherilynn (who just called me and omigosh it's 1:30am, I just came home just heard the sound of thunder!o.o) who was feeling down today (I was too but we'll jiayouuuuus for HMT together okie!!:D:D) and Clar who wanted a birthday post to be dedicated to her, as well as MAAAAAA cos she keeps complaining that I don't love her as much as I love .. -.- (which is so not true at all cos I don't even love _ in the first place +rolls eyes+ TT)

smsing k naow teehee time to sleeeeeeeeep stupid boy makes me feel so bad cos he's been staying up for me till the wee hrs of the morning every single day for the past ten plus weeks. what the hell right omigosh. farewell was cool, got caked five billon times I'm going to get pimple-fied can. anyway OMIGOSH I'M GOING TO WATCH 10H WORTH OF TABLE TENNIS WITH K NEXT SATURDAY YAYYYY!!:D:D I was completely stunned when he told me he got us tickets. ten freeeeeaking hours of watching a white small pathetic pingpong ball fly around, YAYYYY!!8DDD

I LOVE SANNIE OMIGOSH HAHAHAHAHA I SURPRISED HIM (kinda failed though that awesum plan) AT HIS HOUSE WITH FRUIT TARTS+FAMOUS AMOS LOLLIPOP ON HIS BIRTHDAY!!

then went to tampines1 and treated him to BBQ chicken HAAAAAAAI SANNIE I KNW YOU'RE READING THIS!!:D:D funfunfun miss him ttm (I KNOW YOU MISS ME TOO.) :)

Yesterday, today, and Monday would definitely be shitty. ):

Bio results were damn bad, Chinese was equally bad, and I'm going to run around screaming I AM COW if I pass Math. Super prepared to fail already unless some miracle happens. But I knw that there'll always be a better day. :)

JIAYOUUUS AUD! (:

Have faith+smile+belieeeeeve. :)

2010-08-09T02:10:00.004+08:00

omigosh haven't blogged in two weeks!!

sorry lazy to upload my jay chou, racial harmony and random classroom pictures (mainly those ft. rj in class, and kor/nat doing funnyweird stuff to my cookie monstaaaaa rawrrr D:.)

listening to the fray right now yup waiting for k to reply my sms then we can both turn in ahahaha it's 2 frigging 12 in the morning on national day happy holidays i'm so glad the tumultuous week was over pretty rush and my mood was just i need sleep i need sleep so badly i can't believe i'm blogging now ahahaha. i've been living on 4h of sleep per day i don't think even this holidays can do justice to my body because this is another crazily busy and hectic week!!)):

mon-proj, tuesday training, weds birthday celebration for clar + classified information not to be blogged about, thurs late school dismissal/considered going for recrea but was against it due to LSD, friday handover.

madmadmaddd insane madness and with the 3 major tests the following week i hv no idea how sleep deprived i'm going to get.

people are always asking me why i'm always so sleep deprived, well you guys don't hv horrible schedules AND I HAVEN'T FINISH WRITING QUEENIE'S LETTR OH HOT DAMN.

promised k that i'll bake for him this week, yup should be on weds?:) while i chiong rushing from one place to another. can bake for him + senior's farewell as well yayyy :D he's damn nice yno, found my left handed chopstick with a note enclosed in it on tuesday. chionged to training and didn't manage to see him before i left school so his classes ended late. but he came ovr heh. went macs to get my milkshake w/him after school on thurs, then climbed tgt on friday heeeeh i made a promise to myself regarding tuesdays trainings alr. :) mornings don't feel like mornings w/o his sms ahahah. :)

& clar and joshua !cough. I'm only writing him as k because you guys are disgusted with me calling him the full 3 letters can.TT horrible two people~.

I'm going to be a responsible ip2 kid from now on who's going to be a good rolemodel, no more choosing one thing over the other because rock's becoming important too (not like it hasn't.)

anyw think training's going to be mre intensive now cos 6 of us got chosen for the nus bouldering competition (yeeeeees bouldering ftwwwww!!8DD). nov and ber not taking part this time to allow us to gain more exposure. but i'm pretty ): that I'm not able to take part in NW this time cos I'm of IW standard alr butbutt there's no IW standard in this comp, gahhh :/

first time going to a competition where I'll be the one who is the most experienced in the team :/

fighting for the school now, not for the individual in my case. hehhhh two more years to go as well, I'll treasure every opportunity, climb to your fullest and do yr best, that's what matters at the end of the day after having been through the competitions the past year.

I think what matters is we be grateful for the opportunities we're given (I hv no idea what i'll do w/o the team, it's more or less a darn integral part of me now that taking it away, taking climbing away, and taking the people in the team away frm me is going to hurtsuck idk.. it'll just be horrible.)

Carpe Diem, seize the day. :)

Sec 2 god-knows-what.

enjoy what you do and you'll never find it a chore, so true right?:)

hectice week, here I come.

but first, reply k ahahaha sleep lalalanddddd!~

2010-07-26T00:18:00.005+08:00

周杰伦 FOR THE MEGA TASTIC FREAKING WINNNNNN OMGGGGGG.

♥

"OMG SHIOOOOOK. Don't need to watch youtube today, can get to see live!!"

upload pictures tmr/soon, OMG TOTALLY OMG OMG OMG OMGGGGG CONCERT.

Almost fainted died went kuku OMG OMG OMGed ttm screamed and jumped around with a freaking lightstick in hand waving it madly around singing my frigging lungs out bursting in joy excitement euphoria WHEN HE SANG THE SONGS I WANTED HIM TO SING!! OMG !DIEEEEES.

龙卷风，简单爱 (!) 我不配，可爱女人，开不了口，说了再见 , 时光机，阳光宅男，说好的幸福呢，稻香 ultimate love ttm zomgggg!

AND OMG OMG OMG LARA + CINDY WAS THERE TOO!!

sang 黑色幽默 w/Cindy, although I was expecting them to do the usual 画沙. wanted him to sing 园游会 (zomg if he really did I would've died x101 because he rarely does this non-hit track during concerts!!) 一路向北 and zomggg 蒲公英的约定!

cindy's really pretty!:)

there were two encores and it was frigging two half hours and he sang 20+ hits can omggggg +faintehs blissfully+

atmosphere was super good OMG everyone madly waving blue jay lightsticks around omgomgomgggggg +waves it fervently+

yanzi was also in the audience super epic zomggg hahaha she was on live screen for half a song la zomg HAHAHAHAHA.

8DDD. pictures soon!! :D:D:D

周! 杰! 伦!

FAINTS.

HAHAHAHAHAHA(!!) OMG.

2010-07-21T16:53:00.002+08:00

Peterpan: Why did you have to go away for so long?
Tinkerbell: You never gave me a reason to came back. I was always there when you needed me but I guess you never showed how important I am in your life. Now it's different, now we've changed, but I'm still smiling.
Peterpan: Why?
Tinkerbell: I myself don't know the reason. It's just that now.... It's your turn to miss me.

I'm tempted to get a tumblr account cos a blog's not exactly the right place when you just want to post quotes and pictures and all.

I've started taping meaningful quotes on my wall, they make my day.

Okie better get off the lappie now. Have to mug for tmr's test, do the pedra blanca research, write nieloh's letter and reply kor's sms.

not looking forward to anything beyond next week.. just want to climb, zihigh in class, steal sticky sweets, (eat socks), and wake up to heartwarming morning messages. k's been super nice, keep waiting for me to turn in at night so he's been sleeping at around 12.30-1 everyday. I think we both seriously need some shut eye. Heeeeeeh.

2010-07-17T16:58:00.003+08:00

"next to you my love is true wna go back to where I was w/you. ~"

!aieee after schoooooool!^^

so many random things to do ahahah I feel like bathing!!

anyway okie this post is dedicated to clarissa leong yayyyyyyyyy! :D (she wanted me to LOLOL).

^ THAT IS MY CHIOCHIO RIBBON HAIRBAND SHE'S BEEN INSULTING. ):

Alot of things made me happy this week. :D

besides the fact that Sher & Bran kept complaining that I had to get enough sleep because I was being kukuer TT. SHER AND I PLOTTED AN ATTACK ON BRANDON'S BAG BECAUSE HE REFUSED TO SHARE HIS BIRTHDAY SWEETS WITH US.

PLAN SUCCEDED!

HAHAHAHAHAHAH.

A couple of things that makes me happy!/Made me happy this week:D

I was about to leave the house to catch the morning bus on Thursday when mummy came up from sending mei off, and passed me a letter!

It made my day so much I was smiling like a kuku in the hall while reading it omgggg!!:D:D

THANK YOU QUEENIE & YY THE LETTERS ARE SO PRETTY LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH!! ♥

(btw, SANNIE YOU THING I DID NOT DIE CAN. +touch wood+ )

^Wx drew, folded, and gave this to me during T2.

Think Josh(y) OMG HAHAHAHA sorry Joshua D:

will most probably be reading this so XIE XIE YOU AND WX FOR WAITING FOR ME TO DO SIP SO WE COULD TAKE 36 HOME!!:) :)

forgot to sms you guys to thank you so yayyy!!:D:D

note: brainstorm for topics please both of you. my brain cells are dyingzxzx. D:

Sher damn funny omg!!

She intended to develop photos at parkway so Clar and I followed her there. Then while Clar went to find both Jos, Sher chased me away from the photostore and told me that I'll "find out why on Monday". She finally admitted that she was using the photos to write notes for Clar and I! PLAN FAIL LA WOMAN HAHAHAHA funny ttm!!:D:D

BUT I LOVE THE POLAROID THINGUM SO MUCH YAYYYYY THANK YOU WOMAN!!♥

+talking to you about guy issues during econs, getting our brains squashed this whole tiring week, recommending korean mvs and all!

omigosh she let me watch the new taeyang video and I love the dance as well!!:D:D

School this week was fuuuun!

Despite the horrifying LA test mugmugmug, 11h of sleep in 3days, (now it's 15.5h in 4 days) but I crashed like maddd after PTC and got to sleep till late afternoon today and woke up to kor's message!

Thank you Ren Jie for helping me load my wifi yayyyyyy now I can tumblr in class once again!

ALTHOUGH YOU ARE GNA DIE FOR THE PICTURE. -.-

I AM OBSESSED WITH COOKIE DOZER OMIGAWD. O.O

It was Shan Yi's birthday yesterday!

Much less people came for training yesterday!)): (like, half the core team cos VS stole alot of our guys away TT).

Mostly valid reasons yuuup anyway. Training is much better with 2 coaches and it's so much more effective!! Although Timmy keeps calling me his younger sister wth TT

Coach made us do 100 cruches/leglifts/dolphins each + 50 push up because of.. :X nvm lalalala. +sunshine smile+ :D:D

went to city square and bought SY an ice cream cake then celebrated for him yayyyy!!

love the team ttm man omigosh hahahaha!!:) :)

People have contrasting views about my chio floral schoolshoe. ):

Whenever JY sees me he'll be like, "OMG you're wearing the curtain shoes again!!"

-.-

Then yesterday during training Aisyah asked me where I bought my shoes from!!

The I dragged Joel in front of her cos he keeps saying that my shoes look like table cloth!!)':

Aisyah said it again, and Joel said "Maybe she wants to know where to not go so she won't land up with an ugly shoe like yours." (when obviously she thought my shoes were nice okay!:D)

then someone had to add, "OR, maybe she jsut wants to know where to get her table cloth from."

WL everyone laughed like mad cannnn.

Pft silly climbers. AHAHAHAHAH.

ohohoh kor is super nice can. :)

okay I'm going to end this with how I began it- with Clar (AGAIN).

HAHAHAHA.

THANKS FOR THE SHOES YOU WOMANNNN!!:D:D ♥

YOU TOO JO!! ♥ +megahugs+

2010-07-15T00:01:00.003+08:00

hai i think i'm really becoming kuku like what sher and brandon has been telling me these past few days.

the sight of sammie wearing mine and kor's jacket on each arm made me laugh so hard, awww so cute! :)

did weights yesterday, 4kg. i've been living on 11h of sleep the past 3 days and was supposed to come back to sleep today but my attempts to were overridden by the mere thought of the lappie. i want a sexy macs milkshake.

funny thing, 6 degree connections.

saw sthg that left me gob-smacked yesterday.

asked e abt it. :/

was compelled to think about it the whole freaking day today. ):

彼此不知道自己如何怎么做，但也希望这件事快被解决。

不知道如何对你解释，也不知道自己从此之后该怎么过着生活。

不要再嫉妒了，好吗？

thinking about it on the bus today, and what sannie once told me, i don't know if i'll regret it.

it's difficult- so what if you've ran a thousand miles for someone you love, that doesn't mean that they ought to treat you back the same way as how you treated them.

ASDFJKL.

Idk what to do howhowhow asdfjkl.

okay really, how.

I DON'T KNOW. okay i think this blog is damn joke. but i really felt super helpless today and v ;-;.

): Haiyoh.

Nevermindddd. audrey smile okieokieokie everyone lives through hurt butbut what if you have a choice to reverse that hurt and make sthg better out of it! it'll be exhausting. is it worth it?

doubts insecurities fears jealousy.

typical of what typical girls would probably feel.

2010-07-11T11:08:00.001+08:00

"I don’t know if I’m really getting better or am I just getting used to the pain."

2010-07-05T22:13:00.003+08:00

Aud is:

hyperventilating cos school starts tmr. omigosh, tomorrow!!

after 6 weeks of boycotting the uniform, i hope it'll feel good to wear tomorrow!

(on a brighter note, there's awesum killer pt tmrw and I get to see the whole core team!!^^)

2. Feeling accomplished

becuuuuuz I did tons of things this holidays (with the help of a trusty resolution ahahahah.) including the board above (though it looks kinda plain naow teeehee.)

& I forged closer friendships with a few particularly awesum people that can make me smile like a doofus just by texting me, oh god.

although i didn't get to swim more than once nor complete any drama serials !shakes fist

ANYWAY Sannie you toot I knw you're reading this & your ego's super inflated cos yr picture's right up thr but I'M SO GNA TAKE YOUR PIC DOWN IF YOU DON'T GIVE ME MY PINK FLUFFY FURBALL THING HELLO WHERE ISIT UH.

3. Motivated to SMILE!:)

term 3's going to be less of a bitch than I thought (I hope).

term 4's non-existant, which leads me to somehow wondering if normal O-level students are actually having an easier time than us kids, if you don't consider the security blanket we possess cos we're already in vj, ahahahah.

iono, I think we're seriously studying freaking much more than Sec 4s but at least whatever we're studying is (more or less) interesting mhmmm.

I think I've been self-studying for at least 70% this year cos I'm always zZzing HUH WHATTT in class. o_o.

tumblr ftw as well. much charge my touch and prepare it for tmr's scary (and boring) periods.

today went by in a flash. :)

texted until 1plus yesterday, fell asleep with an unconfirmed morning breakfast with kor today morning

6:40am :

"hmm.. how does 8:45 sound?"

6:53am :

me: HUUUUH I wanted to wake up only at 9!

but then we confirmed the 8:45 thingum cos I just wanted to fall back asleep. I thought waking up like 10 plus min after his sms was quite cool though. telepathy yozxzx 8D

slept till..

8:23am.

"ASDFJKL WTFFFFFF(ish) SHITTTTTT!!"

(I've been late on practically 4/5 of the occassions I met him this holidays)

chiong like madddd okay!!

then ended up meeting him at 9plus at white sand instead.

felt super damn omg bad!! -.-

hanged out at superdog for awhile before meeting the rest.

borrowed nov's bike to cycle to pasir ris park!:D

team went cycling in the morning, then we kinda played bball. omg amazing right!!

HAHAHAHA.

went to nov's house to watch some comedy movie thing then went to katong to be a no lifer and waited 2 and a half hours for the printed SIP booklet. last day of my holidays evaporated before me can!! ))':

AHAHAH.

shit I think I'll really miss staying up texting till 3am and waking up to sweet morning messages asdfjkl die dreaded S word die!!

I NEED MORE TIME TO READ GOSSIP GIRL YOU COW THING. ):

RAH RAH RAH RAH RAH GAH GAH OOH LALA.

seriously i don't rly care how it's spelt/pronounced by god Lady Gaga is damn hot hahahahaha!!

I WANT YOUR BAD ROMAAAAAAANCE~

okay, I'll miss zhighing at 1am and getting o_o by kuku people online and watching crazy adverts even though they're just weirdly gross and I'LL MISS WAKING UP AT FRIGGING 12 NOON.

thanks alot man.

for a person who had 6 weeks of nonstop holidays i shouldn't be complaining so much.

STILL.

I WANT YOUR BAD ROMANCE.

HAHAHAHAHA.

6 and a half hours of sleep. -.-''

2010-07-05T00:15:00.004+08:00

True love's a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

whatever-ship, fingers crossed it stays positively strong.

(don't read further, nothing implied.)

2010-07-04T02:24:00.002+08:00

I hate waiting for important SMSes in the middle of night.

currently, my mood is )):

because I feel so so bad about.. it.

meh, confused.

!pulls sad face

;-;

yesterday, i asked someone "if they could wish for one thing, what thing would it be."

someone replied me "you" this morning.

it made my day teehee.

hookay blasting emo songs. ):

mikamikamikaaaa!!:)

2010-06-29T01:18:00.005+08:00

AUDREY.. DOESN'T WNNA GO BACK TO SCHOOL FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER BECAUSE RENJIE JUST REMINDED HER THAT SHE OWES HIM ONE FULL WEEK OF NONSTOP PINCHING, SHITTT!!

the class is going to die next week.. everyone please bring earmuffs.

on a sidenote, i'm supposed to be reading my overdued library book right now but i'm too lazy to i haven't even replied kor's email since like, one and a half hour ago and i'm using fb chat to chat cos i'm too lazy to sign online rubbish ahahahaha. it's 1:27am i hv smp and -GIRLLL PUT YR RECORDS ON TELL ME YR FAVOURITE SONG- sip today oh no sleep sleep! just sleptover at leannejj's house last night after crashing shengle korkor's house to watch soccer albeit england got thrashed by germany, epic ownage omigosh but although this girl was rooting for england she was over the stunning defeat bcuz england really deserved it cos their defence was totally in the dumps and podolski(!) made everything sweeter hehhh. :)

anyway. RJ IS POLLUTING MY FB CHAT WITH BRA ADS. JO PLZ COME BACK SOON (before my eyes bleeds) D':

I AM IN LOVE WITH MACS MILKSHAKE.

but hasn't anyone realised that chocolate doesn't taste like chocolate and they seem to be decreasing the amount of chocolate they put into the chocolate milkshake and when i told kor that i couldn't differentiate between macs chocolate and vanilla milkshake alr he just laughed at me. :(

accompanied him to tcc today to do work till 10+ and wants me to wake him up tmrw to mug! hehhhh silly people tsk.

AHAHAHA i'm totally going to spend the last 7 days of my holidays out doing anything but work babyyyy! climbing on friday LET'S WATCH ECLIPSE AS A MIDNIGHT MOVIE, YOZX. :)

thankful.

2010-06-24T22:13:00.004+08:00

I shouldn't ask for anything better.

curled up in bed now back in singapore.

updates in another post.

yno the feeling you get when you're just so darn grateful for everything and thinking abt it all makes you smile?

I found a letter in my mailbox today. old, personally-penned snail mail. it made me laugh and cry and tear and a rush of emotions surged through me. that letter was written by nieloh. enclosed in it was an overdued letter from nat to me, her 2010 valentine's day card to me, a note I wrote to her back in 2008, and a 3-paged letter explaining her randomness. not so much randomness to me as it might be for you, because the letter means a whole lot to me because I knw that woman's never the type to impulsively take up a pen and get down to business unless it's really really by some miracle that she does, haha.

anyway I was really really touched (ttm) and she said sthg that rang a bell in me. It's inevitable that changing schools led us to drift apart, but there's something that we can each do to prevent it.

I guess that was the miracle that motivated her, hahaha.

Old-fashioned personally-penned snail mail from her whom I haven't seen in 3 months, I was rly super touched ttm zomgggg!!):

If you're reading this nieloh (although I don't think you will cos you never bothered reading blogs), I love you woman ttm!! Thank you so much you mean the world to me +big wide cheery grin+.

Then I immediately texted kor briefly abt it (who has probably fallen asleep mugging, lol xp) and his immediate response was: cry as in happy, sad etc? you alright now?

superrrrr touching also la! normally my reply would be like, HUH why, but he bothered to check if I was okay, superrrrr nice. :)

not to forget to mention the morning smses I've been waking up to the past few days and random smses to update me abt his life on top of emailing! damnnnn nice right!:)

& othr things that have happened as well as the people who's been through my ups and downs (can name quite a few!!)

Feel really really thankful, 'cause I knw I couldn't have asked for anything better.

I couldn't have wished for anything else in the world other than these stars that make me smile a gazillion watts brighter + dad, mum and sissy.

hmm..

sometimes when stuff happens, you're afraid of not knowing who to turn to fearing that they might judge you. you're afraid of even letting someone know how much you depend and rely on them, how much they make your world much brighter, fearing that might turn them off. you're afraid of giving your whole heart to them, afraid of what they'll do to it when it's raw and you're at your bare nakedness.

I guess everyone starts out this way, but how else would yno who are those that really mean the world to you just as much as you mean the world to them if you don't bare yourself whole? it's time, faith and trust that're the most important in making these insecurities fade away.

the only way to finding true happiness is to risk being cut open.

I'm starting to advocate my facebook page, oh gosh !phail.

shall end it cos I must go oror alr!!:D

I'm a lucky, lucky kid.

& I ought to be hell grateful for everything everyone, yuuuup. :)

!YAYYZX :D

2010-06-19T00:09:00.004+08:00

trying to clear my long overdued smses (sorry guys!!) and emailing+texting K right now. i'm in love with whatdaya want from me. it has meaningful lyrics hahaha. :) N just told me something. Now I'm scared of SJI guys. climbing was awesometastic today the seniors came back to climb omgomgomg miss them like kuku!! miss their highness like siaow omg xoxoxo. ): new batch of climbers are stars, they make me :D x101 during training. last training of the month, it'll be hiong pt from 3 weeks onwards. 3 weeks of break, someone murder me plzplz OMG 3 WEEEEEEEEKS. ): (so not going to climb only in 3 weeks, OTOT sessions ftwww!!)

flight's in 8hrs, can't wait!! hope can watch world cup thr, ENGLAND FTTTTW(!!).

isn't it to thrilling to see peter crouch running all arnd the field with his extraaaa long limbs dangling everywhere, omigosh WIN.

hello clarissa leong wei shan it was epic fuuuun ttm talking to you over the phone, 1h30min blergh not 2h!): cya soon okiezxz can't wait ahahaha!!:D:D (I will reply your sms after this. oops xp)

hello sher. STOP MIA-ing i miss you too zomg!!OOO:

will miss the team and texting/emailing till latenights and waking up to things that'll brighten my mornings.

on a sidenote, this is what i did on thursday-

blogger uploader's a pain, it pixelates the photos if you upload them with a click of your mouse. lazy to use html this time, gna do last minute stuff before I leave.

please don't take your loved ones for granted anymore, dear girl. ):

remember to smile everyone. ♥

2010-06-16T02:20:00.004+08:00

What's perfection without passion?

Training today was beneficial.

Had no idea why but I was somehow determined to finish the 6 high-walling routes despite the abrasions on my elbows.

I stared up at the wall today and thought back at how the meaning of CCA has changed so much for me.

Love the team, XOXOs much. you guys make me smile, much much brighter.

If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with.
You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me.
You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, *my internet obsession*.
You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart.
If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me.
But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you, the way I’ll text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day.
You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you.
But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite me thinking that it is impossible.

don't let popularity get in the way of feelings- kind of made me bit my nails in that squirm-ish matter and think about it today. but the paragraph's sweet (:

so used to waking up every morning and immediately checking my facebook mail, confident that there'll be the red pop-up that never fails to brighten my day. now that kor's back, my texting skills will once again be put to the test. kind of makes me smile, knowing that distance isn't much of an issue anymore.

permanent distance, on the other hand.

2011, so not looking forward to it.

2010-06-10T23:25:00.002+08:00

just finished emailing kor HAHAHAHA.

yayy I only have 5 days left to wait for him to be back to practice my texting skills on. 8DD

2 days of training next week aud is happy~!!

went out today, finally bought a plain black dress to pair with my racerbike jacket and some insanely droolworthy sequin top I was obsessing about it the whole time okay!!

my fbt costed > than mum's weighing balance, heeeeeehh!

I'm going to bake mooooffins on saturday three cheerzxzx!

need to complete down with love, swim another two times, and decorate my noticeboard ahahah.

ohoh, here's what I've been doing over last weekend!(:

kind of simple but meeeeee like. :D

taken with my uber cool 8.1mpx phone AHAHAHAH. +beams+ looks much better online than in the phone. o.o

it's curvy teeeheee :D

hung below the lightswitch!!

sannie you other biatch I want a pink fluffy cute thingum back from canada zomg my cousins are so cuteeee!!:D (excluding you, dear boy.) HAHAHA.

had a fun time talking to clar during smp yesterday!:D

okay time for me to finally sleep early as promised.

8h of sleep, here I comeee~

2010-06-10T01:07:00.004+08:00

I hate making decisions, never was good at them.

I wish I could tell you this over the phone, but I just can't.

I just reread my blog entry to you last december and it's making me ):.

our first fight had been in october, and it's so ironic that it had been about me not giving you the time and energy you wanted. our second fight had been in december, third in january, and fourth in march. it's ridiculous.

I really don't know what to say.

it's been 4 months, God it doesn't feel that long.

it was a misunderstanding, but these 4 months- they allowed me, as well as you probably, to have a new perspective on things. It gave us both space to breathe. Without each other.

Loads of realisations struck.

Anyway, it's not fully your fault honey, we have our flaws and the misunderstanding was caused by me.

Probably done thinking through and making my decision.

Whatever it is, I just want you to know that I guess I have.. my own reasons for doing so(?) and it's not that much about our fights and disagreements.

don't want to think about it so much already, just have to believe that things will turn out fine.

people inevitably drift apart, so don't blame yourself over it.

I believe that people come into your life for a reason, they change you in little ways. sometimes, that has to be enough.

some people appear briefly to light up your life, but you don't have to shed a tear over them, because it means that you once had someone special in your life, someone worth missing.

those that are meant to be- they'll somehow find a way back to you.

smile boo, flash that pretty boy smile of yours.

2010-06-09T00:59:00.005+08:00

Dear God, and the people reading this entry.

for some warped reason I'm feeling really moody, irritated and pissed. The JJ Lin song just makes you want to -_-. Amusement purposes only, makes you smile when you're feeling shitty. Why isn't our table tennis girls (the future, pride and glory of our nation) featured in the video? Tao Li and the gymnasts were, so why not them? You can't deny the fact that they brought real glory to Singaporean after Tianwei swept China -and practically everyone else in Singapore- clean of their gold medal in the World Championship. Words can't express how proud I am to be a Singaporean thanks -but not exhaustive to- Singapore's stunning display of table tennis skill at the WTTC. Tianwei has come a long way from back when she was a table tennis player in China. I remember watching a video of her interview once and crying because she was such an aspiration. (can't find the clip, but I'm sure it'll bring all of you to tears as well, it was that heart-wrenching.)

It featured her thoughts on the intensive training sessions she had, her move from China to Singapore, her dad's death, and how she went back to play table tennis.

She has come a long way. 2nd seeded in the world. Even Jiawei jie's highest ranking had been 3rd.

Meeting both of them twice, getting to talk to them besides the crazy ZOMGGGG I am freaking touching Jiawei's hand after like asdfjkl countless times watching her and screaming in delight whenever she scores a point against (especially but not limited to) the Korean chickens in the 2004 Olympics, yes I and other Jiawei fans were freaking pissed. To the max. Besides the fact that you finally get to see your idol after waiting for like, since 2004, I think it's just.. +I have no idea how to describe it+ that you actually get to really see them up close and personal (OMG !SPAZZ JIAWEEEEEEEEI!) and feel their alluring presence.

Hope Tianwei leads the team to another stunning victory, that girl has potential & I'm so glad Liu was fired because he never once believe that his girls could defeat Ex-World Champions China. But it was LBW who fired him so I'm not that happy about that at all. Politics in the Table Tennis fraternity.

Haven't been catching up lately, but just wanted to say that I'm really proud of the team and WHY AREN'T THEY FEATURED IN THE RETARDED OH YEAH OH YEAH JOKE JJ LIN VIDEO.

Yes, I missed the on-screen live telecast featuring our glorious win, but I had Pumpfest finals that day. ):

2. I had no idea JB (Justin Bieber, not Jonas Brothers. -.-) was the guy who sang Eenie Meanie. I mean, come on. Duh, you're a total under-the-rock dude who's been living on a cloud if you haven't heard the song, but to think that its title is Eenie Meanie. Eenie Meanie Mini Mo.

Austin Powers, MINIIIIIIIIIIIIII ME!!

someone told me about him the other day.

I miss talking till latenights, 3am kind of thing. It feels crappy and blergh ): without a long sms awaiting you once you wake up in the morning because I fell asleep either texting/awaiting a reply. Checking my phone every morning has become a habit after one week already, zomgggg! Especially when it's those kind of friends you can talk to about anything. Those long long 6-10 pages long smses telling me to go sleep early and not skip my meals, please make time fly!!): My fingers confirm itch like madd once those long smses start again. ASDFJKL.

It makes your heart like.. do a backflip when someone you were thinking of randomly texts you past midnight and asks if you're awake.

Zomg makes you smile like siaow ahahaha. "yes I'm awake."

& whatever's in your mind is just so you were thinking of me too.

friends that can read your mind GMH.

So badly wanted to scream today,

Why can't you fight for me?

2010-06-06T01:33:00.007+08:00

justin b's videos are haunting. more haunting than the women i saw onboard the train with a lion mane-like hair. shiiiiver. 8D

anyw, this week was cool.

played badminton on weds, went swimming on thursday then bought the $1.50 frozen yoghurt that's absolute love after swimming!8DD haven't swam in eons, my endurance and stamina is like asdfjkl but 26 laps, zomggggg. 8D!

climbed on tuesday. sports/exercise week much?xp

to-do:
ice skate, skate, cycle, bakeeee!

hopefully i can bake next week, maybe before training on tuesday cos there's project from mon-thurs zomggggg. i wanna wanna bake that multilayer coloured cake thing zomg so awesome looking!!

went to do proj in the morning, then went to ikea!

bought a full-length mirror, long photo frame w/multi frames, pin-up board! going to develop photos and all to put in the frame, family, rock, 12, etcetc. exciting!!(:

will take pictures once that's done, monday maybe. if I'm actually bothered enough to mug finish chem and bio tmr/today kinda thing teeheee :D

went sim lim, then met rice for his friend's concert.

i'm plainly amused that my juniors call him torres. hahaha those silly kids XD

we didn't grab dinner cos i was late, gah.

anyw co concert ended at 9+, after encoring. HAHAHAHA.

kind of debating if we were going to have dinner, cos i wasn't hungry and he could survive w/o eating lunch and dinner.. o.o

in the midst of the concert:

e: okay. we're totally going to grab dinner after this.

joke.

we made a bet that the first person who fell asleep during the concert would pay for dinner.

obviously that left us both wide-awake. HAHAHA.

freaking difficult time deciding where to eat, sheesh.

ended up at kfc, ate till 11+.

mrt-ed to pasir ris. threatened to lock him out of the mrt if he sent me home, pfttt ):

madd, would've felt so guilty can. he eventually alighted at city hall, hahahaha.

hate it hate it hate it when a country takes people away from me!!)):

sounds so ridiculous but that's what always happen blerghasfjkl!

canada has taken my superboy away from me for a frigging 16 days, my late night smsing buddy for 1 week plus, project members for like.. the freaking whole holidays !aieeeeeee.

but nvm, hk= shopping+desserts+sleeeeeeep!

I will be a good girl and sleep for 8h minimum this whole week. (:

doesn't it make you smile when someone tells you that you looked very pretty tonight.

it's funny how when someone says they love you, you can't really feel it. but when they say they don't love you anymore, you feel every ounce draining out of your entire being.
-runawaytrain

2010-06-01T00:48:00.004+08:00

rock.. stones, paper scissors SPORK(!!)

thought i'd post some pictures before i turn in. TRAINING TODAY YAYYYY!!8DD

i'm going ikea this saturday to find furnishing and a board for my desk so i can finally plaster those lovely pictures frm sec1 up!(L)

And it's two a.m. and I'm cursin' your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you

so damn in love with the past midnight hour, yno when you lie in bed grinning to yourself because of things that make you smile.

2010-05-31T01:04:00.004+08:00

going to be a short post (:

made it to novice finals on friday, didn't expect it at all haha. :D

http://sgclimb.com/nbl/2010/05/29/pumpfest-2010-novice-women-qualifies/

stun tio like maddd hahaha topping 6 is like, o.o" (!)

& I false-started 3 times that's why my attempts was 10 hookaye. TT Need to start taking note of that during training, joke.

Finished 5th/8 today in Finals, did my best and could've topped. ): Quite proud haha really didn't expect myself to get into intermediate in this competition. Was prepared to train like mad during the December holidays just to get promoted into Intermediate next year. Training during December to get into Inter Finals now. 8D HAHA.

Just really really grateful that I got promoted this year, the last bouldering competition of the year for me because I'll be overseas during Rockmaster in what, 3 weeks' time.

Grateful to seniors as well, I'll miss them alot D':

Post turning out to be longer than expected. HAHAHAHA.

I have a ritual before comps now!8D

Cut nails, Fill chalk bag, Pour loose chalk, Check that shoes and all are in my shoe bag, write letter to myself!8D

Really lor, was mad happy on Friday.. +big smiley face+.

Anyway, there's SMP today in 8hrs meaning that I'll have only 6h of sleep.

J1 training on tuesday, have I D': that it feels so different to turn around and realise that you're not the youngest in the team anymore? because there're IP1 juniors just O: at you completing a route/climbing up the volcano, as what they call it! so cute right!!:) (although they're mostly taller than me but that's besides the point.)

High-walling and realising that the ones you're screaming allehz to has an.. unfamiliar backview, because it's not the J2s climbing but the J1s now.

Going to dinner with this year's batch and talking about way different things and laughing about different stuff and having to combine like 7 tables in a row or something just to accomodate everyone. It had been 13+1 last year, now it's going to be 59+2.

I miss the J2s. )))':

& I'll have to deal with this one more time next year after I feel attached to this year's J1s + Bernice&Nov. ))))':

Spent my past 3 days at City Square Mall competing/watching Pumpfest.

Now competition season's finally over for me, and I've achieved my goal of getting Intermediate by this year. Training my ass off 4 times a week, heel hooking and like siaow and going for tiles on the first storey volume practically every week paid off, as well as those stretchy tensiony moves although I used alot of static in this competition.

It's now time to get back to mugging.

Feel so lost as if something integral's missing.

Irwan wants Ber Nov and me to break for this month and do some other leisure sport besides climbing.

My break officially starts today, after Pumpfest.

But I think I'll still be going back this Tuesday to make sure things are okay with the team training-wise and logistically because Ber & Nov are overseas & the J2s aren't training anymore so the J1s will be left with Coach if I don't come for training this week. :/ Should go back help!(: Hahaha. Faces will become familiar once training progresses. Hope this batch would turn VJRC around in a positive light as what the seniors in the 09 batch has done.

Exco meeting next week, decisions decisions decisions.

Besides that, and that missing piece of empty hole that would only be aye okay once training officially resumes for me, I have totally got to catch up with work, I feel so.. stranded.

Audrey's going to turn in already, night night lovelies. (:

Everything begins with faith.

Intermediate!

2010-05-29T02:20:00.002+08:00

this cake is so pretty i should try baking it this holiday if my oven permits!!:)

+insert super big smiley face+!!

i achieved another goal of the year today today today!! waited one year plus omigosh still super shocked!!

yoguru (L) +another big smileeeey face FTW!!+

someone tell me i'm not becoming more immature plz.

+beams+

Halfway Gone

2010-05-26T00:11:00.004+08:00

D':

Just came home;

yesterday

I was curled up in bed with bad cramps yesterday night, two freaking am while texting someone. I was about to sleep when my phone vibrated. & then it hit- Texting in bed, two am, that familiar feeling. So Secondary Two. Then some absolute wave of sadness hit me. )': Don't really know how to explain but it made me quite D': that I stopped texting and made myself go to sleep afterwards.

Coach returned us the letters we wrote to ourselves last year. Cried my eyes red today during the final team talk, everyone. Emo day today, just feel like stoning and emoing. Haven't done so in god knows how freaking long.

Walked and walked and walked home today. Damn exhausted, don't feel like thinking. Just want to curl up and stone and emo over something. I don't know haha.

Came home, bathed while i thought over stuff. Still remember when this year first began, February kind of thing. Cried and cried cos I underperformed like mad during Gravical, and because balancing schoolwork and other rubbish stuff was just.. stressful. Now looking back it was an eye-opener, having competition and RTs smacked one after another. Then there was the family time problem as well, because I found myself spending less and less time with them.

"I will study hard for RTs- Believe, Smile."

That paper's still taped onto the wall, I still see it everyday.

Things did work out. I can't say I've been spending loads of time with my family but it's passable. I'm just grateful I have time to tutor my sister with her schoolwork and at least try to be the responsible elder sister to her.

I got into Exco, we came in Champions for NSSCC Women's Team, went through madd 4 times a week training, and I passed my subjects.

I remember waking up on a Monday at six frigging am because I couldn't fall back to sleep after what you told me. Hurt, for once, became tangible. I let go of a friendship, because I was sick of being hurt.

Term Two was worth it. Aud learnt alot mmhm. :D

It's 1am, aud wants to sleep mmkay g'night. ^^

2010-05-24T17:07:00.003+08:00

Fishy told me to go online to read something HAHAHAHAH shittt I'm supposed to be sleeping naow. D:

I feel hardworkingly hungry today!!:D:D:D

time to.. BLOGSHOP.

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

sometimes solutions aren't so simple, sometimes goodbye's the only way.

2010-05-23T01:09:00.006+08:00

)))))):.

WTS.

Sher told me to go read my December posts because I sounded muchmuch happier then but my December entries has made me feel.. damn shit. )':

because to put it plainly things have changed. don't know, don't care. that's life. +pulls face+

don't know why i'm still sticking up for you whenever people bitch about you la, seriously. i should stop being an idiot. -.-

& I just wasted my first paragraph on.. asdfjkl that doesn't mean anything to me alr, win.

-.-

I think I'm damn angsty today :/ can just spam my touch with all the LP songs ahahahah, joke.

anyway, I got into exco.

guessed the position alr, quite happy yuuuuup.

juniors are superrrr cute hahahaha. :D

1. Pumpfest's next friday. next friday. next friday. five more frigging days.

2. I didn't go for training this whole week. WTTTTTS. sick. ): yes germs, you win. Now can I have my normal life back?

3. Rock BBQ just ended. Like 2h ago.

4. Last training with seniors this Tuesday.

^ ))':

damn sad, it'll seriously just feel... ))':

5. Skipping school for two days and coming back to find a huge pile of work on your desk is not fun.

6. HBL, whatthehell? I need to climb, not discuss about ogliopoly or however itzxz typed worhx.

SMP from 8-1 on Monday, WIN. Wts 8am joke don't know what I was thinking whattheasdfjkl 8 frigging am -______-

SMP, Physics Project, SIP, HK Trip. + Swim a whole frigging lot. Because Coach wants three of us to take a break and stop training for a month ):

Hope it'll make me tanner, although I'll still wnna climb.

I guess a breather would be good as well. Too busy to apply for a job. I'll learn the guitar during the December holidays. 6 weeks of holiday, mhhmm.

zomg! & HELLO SANNIE IF YOU'RE READING THIS I TELL YOU UH THAT STUPID ASDFJKL LADY CHEATED US HOOKAYE WTTTTTS THEY SELL THE SHOE AT PARKWAY ASDFJKL MAKE US SEARCH THE WHOLE FRIGGIN ORCHARD.

ohoh, found this long phrase(?) today, super meaningful;

The greatest irony of life is loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right and finding out you love someone after that person walks out from your life and sometimes you think you’re already over a person but when you see them smile at you, you’ll suddenly realize that you’re just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much you love the person. Most relationships tend to fail not because the absence of love; love is always present. It’s just the one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little as we all know that the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left. Maybe that’s the reason why the heart is not always right. Most often we fall in love with the person we think we love only to discover that for them, we are just for past times, while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger. Here’s a piece of advice: let go when you’re hurting too much, give up when love isn’t enough and move on when things are not like before. There is someone out there who will love you even more, surely then, you will know true love.

2010-05-20T09:55:00.004+08:00

hatehatehateee it i hate being sick!!)):

i hate taking medicine they're puke-able omggg ): & water tastes like... medicine as well now )):!!

new big bang song super niceeeee!!:D:D

me hope i'll get well soon, exco results out tmr!!OO: although i more or less knw my position alr; now that i think about it i don't mind hehhh those juniors are so cute!:D)

sucks manzxzx i wnna go to school soon. ):

my whole body is aching because i've been sleeping to much, lolol.

Math tells us three of the tragic love stories.
Tangent lines who had one chance to meet and then parted forever.
Parallel lines who were never meant to meet.
And asymptotes who can get closer and closer but will never be together.

2010-05-13T23:50:00.003+08:00

tomorrow..

expectations, disappointment.

iono what to expct, iono if it's true.

but imma gna tell myself that whatever will be will be, kind of disappointed but i gotta face up to reality tmrw rightright (:

i guess i wanted it more and took it for granted that i'll get it as time passed blergggggh. ):

wonder what will happen at the exact time next year.. even more pressure?

it's 2am now i can't sleep i have another 3h 50more min to take a power sleep (nap to be precise) before options test consumes me and election starts.

but it's okay okie auddie you're totally gna promise yourself you'll be satisfied with what you get today okieokie :):)

self denial. blerghhh nvm i shall stay a happy goldfish~ :)

1. hk in four freaking more weeks yayyyyy!

2. i am going out with my superboy this saturday!! youguru ftw YAYYY omg can't wait haven't bitched in a damn long time!! i lost my bitching abilities, that's good yozx. :D CAN'T WAITTT YAYYYYY JIAYOUS FOR MYES LAST PAPER(S) TODAY EVERYONE!!8DD

3. i have 6 freaking weeeeeeeeks of holdiays. AHAHAHA YAAAAAAAYZX.

asdfjkl i'm supposed to feel upset right now but imma not!8DD

2:07am.

goodluck waking up today auddie. :D

2010-05-02T23:03:00.004+08:00

3 days' worth of holidays= (apparent) time to catch up on homework

when it actually mean 3 days' worth of tumblring and quote-whoring

besides horribly failing to ignore the msn icon that's jumping up and down my toolbar.

this is horrible i don't mean to ignore people online but i've never been a good multitasker in the first place mhmmm especially when thr's FOOD!D:

mad. this week has been a multitude of emotions~

wna blog about alot of things but can't.

i took 3 hours to type the above heh msn convos are amusing~

went senior's house to sing on friday, left the place at 10+. shiok haha fish leong & s.h.e songs must get jay chou!!

can't wait for his concert, damn lucky can get tickets la, people queue up like mad also can't until he's having a third concert now. teehee.

this is a no comments post alright, i don't really feel like answering are-you-okay/you-sound-emo kind of thing. i'm okay in the most normal way possible and i just need an outlet to get my feelings out. questions about who i'm referring to will not be entertained, there's alot.

when i love you it's so untrue i can't even convince myself.

when i'm speaking it's the voice of someone else.

nowadays with the ongoing drama i picture myself in the past and can understand how you felt.

when i see him, i can see a picture of me in the past and how i was towards you- naive, and uncertain till i unknowingly hurt you. i used to think it was smart that way, i would protect myself and inevitably let you know that i have retreated out of your life. but little did i actually know that by avoiding eye contact and getting my radar high on alert, it was actually tearing you up inside and leaving both of us even more confused and angsty.

when i start ignoring the drama and gather my courage just to make sure you feel better even when i don't know what has gone wrong between us, i feel like him. how he always used to make me feel better and had always given in to me although he was somewhat not fully in the wrong. how he, you, would just give in to me because you hated arguing with me. somehow, i think i'm beginning to become like you. i don't know what's wrong between the both of us, but it has become so overbearing that i gave up and things are alright now.

somehow, i don't know if the present tense still stands so i changed it to the past.

silence is deafening. so is awkward silence and the cold gasps of air that separates two.

friday, bus stops. i'm going to have a phobia of them from now on, seriously.

"hey, how have you been."

"seemingly less better than you are coping, what with that nonchalance attitude towards the direction our friendship is headed."

you could've just told me that, at least given me physical, tangible pain. but no, you allowed the mere silence to encompass us both.

how badly i wanted to tell you that i don't understand, i never did, and i want the awkwardness between us to disappear and how much i'm sorry if that was why these 3 weeks had been so cold.

i couldn't act like how i used to and be caught up in the tangled mess of our friendship and let myself be down all day; but how things was did affect me.

see? just reading that -seeing how i behave right now- it reminds me so much of you.

i missed you, because things are alright now.

you?

life is just weird.

leaves your heart crippled when it's not your fault, then leads you to a fall when you don't know what had caused it.

on a lighter note, i think i'm going to buy myself a num schoolbag and chio clutch because the esprit one i'm currently using is strangling itself. hongkong ftw!:D

2010-04-29T22:59:00.002+08:00

super shag. don't know why.

my ropeburn huuuurts hell loads especially when i apply iodine.

can't wait for projects to end, my holidays are going to suck big time man. :/

& i'm srsly going to die in term3. i'm supposed to be amathing now.

i just don't feel like doing anything nowadays.

scrrrrrrream.

at least next monday's a holiday.

me going jay concert!

okay feel like sleeping kthxbye gnight lovelies.~

it's you.

2010-04-25T22:50:00.003+08:00

my shirt destroyed the whole picture!!)):

speeders climbed today, yesterday for leaders. most of them were speeders that's why I didn't climb and wore this shirt and looked funny but it's not funny hookaye)x

We clinched Overall Champions for A Division Girls' team in Nationals.

all 11 of us- both girls and guys in the team worked our asses off for this, trained, threw our studies aside, did freaking loads of things together and I'm so freaking damn proud we persevered together so damn much.

4-5 days of training a week paid off HAHAHAHA omg yesss!!:D:D:D

points were calculated by adding all the scores of the girls results in both speeding and leading.

6 of us girls just screamed like kuku when they announced that we came in first zomggggg.

to this that this goal had been a joke to us when we first targeted it at the beginning of the year.

it's finally come true.

imma glad everyone's happy, i improved truckloads, and we finally clinched something together as a team in the seniors' 2nd last competition before handover. we finally have something to show the freaking school. I WANT MY BOULDERGYM NOW ASDFJKL.

freeeeeeaking trophy super chio.

coach treated all of us to seoul garden after prize presentation.

played in the kids' waterpark at yishun after dinner till 8.45pm.

imagine 1 IP2 1 J1 and 7 J2s running around getting sprayed and playing with 6 year olds. Win, today was awesometastic.

thursday, thursday, thursday. ♥

super inspired by the michael phelps book i'm not done reading yet.

my throat is damn pain, thigh is bruised omigosh the ropeburn sucks Dx, don't feel like going to school tmr. must catch up on sleep and watch physically strong.

someone told me this today, think it's quite meaningful.

something along the lines of, in life, you don't have to forgive and forget.

just as long as you accept the fact, that's all that matters.

super apt, because there's just somethings that people you love do that just tears your freaking heart into half and it would just simply be easier than to allow your heart to be torn into quarters instead of attempting to forgive and forgot. accept, accept, accept. it's more truthful and real.

this tuesday marks the start of our final month of training with the seniors.

)))))))))))))))))))))):.

Overall Champions, A Div Girls.

sounds so freaking awesome.

♥

2010-04-25T00:37:00.002+08:00

)':

missed the finals by one position.

& the miss was a super super near miss.

finished 11th/25. only the top 10 could qualify, felt very very pekchek.

wanted to get into finals very badly.

but it's okay, because i did try my best. ^^

felt really )': at first but got over it, i just have to work harder next time yuuuup.

obstacles are the challenges you face when you take your mind off your goals.

freaking did a backflip when i fell, had ropeburn on one leg and the other was caught in the rope. whole left leg was super numb when i was belayed down and there's minor abrasions. can't really walk straight my knee hurts like shoot asdfjkl. ):

seniors were rly awesome, don't know what i'd do w/o them.- for the team talk, smses of encouragement, motivating don't-give-up talk.

teehee me ish gna look at this in a positive light! this is the failure that's going to push me to train even harder and get into intermediate next month, imma gna believe ^^

smsed sher and clar coscos sher told me to sms them the results once it was out. thank you guys for the encouragements((:

sannie very cute he called just to check if i was okay hahahaha jiayous for myes!:D:D

jiayous for today team!!:D:D

final day of competition, tie-breaker day.

we're gna aim for overall 1st in nationals hookaye, allehz!!:D:D

then yes we can go out for an nc16 movie after results & celebrate, possibly.

ALLEHZ GUYS!^^

BOULDERGYM!XD

2010-04-21T22:45:00.003+08:00

haha :D

clar was humming to whataya want from me during lab lessons yesterday so i'm listening to it now it's niceeeee! :D

tomorrow's going to be the first time in a very, very, very long time i can finally answer marie/sean/clar/sher question of "got rockclimbing today?" with "no.", tell marie that my climbing bag's at home, answer master/wx/sean that "YES I CAN TAKE THE BUS HOME WITH YOU GUYS."

ahahahaah. totally looking forward to it. :D

2010-04-18T21:27:00.002+08:00

ask her if she wants to stay all night and she will be loved.

madness.

hell week of roller coaster rides with me leaving school earliest at 5.30 everyday, fell sick twice. heart was broken on monday morning. how do you sleep with a broken heart kept looping in my head till 7am-ish when i had to wake up and go to school. talking to clar & sher put things into better perspective, thank you guys. clar gave me and sher this uber cute giganormous smiley face as a note, i want half of it! scandal-unfree. hahaha. training maxed out, feelings came and go, thoughts evaporated as fast as they came, and they left me breathless. 6 words- "there will be a brighter day." i'm lacking behind and work is left uncompleted nowadays due to the busy schedule, makes me feel so unaccomplished. un-efficient audrey who will be efficient from now on (promise).

did something that hurt someone else today that i'm feeling so hurt about it as well.

waiting for an sms that'll never come.

)':

this week- go back to ahs, bake, training from mon-thurs, musicfest(!) friday, competition on saturday, support team on sunday.

smile+believe+have faith.

)': still; i wish i didn't do it.

i never liked "sorry". they never seemed to matter after the first few times.

1st, 2nd, 4th, top 8 in Nationals, 18042010.

today's performance was awesometastic.

will miss them truckloads after handover. ):

2010-04-12T23:37:00.002+08:00

But you know, happiness can be found in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.

suck it up, move along.

2010-04-10T23:41:00.005+08:00

if you want to cry; cry on my shoulder
if you need someone, i'll be there for you.

training has been energy-depleting i'm really really glad it's all bouldering from after next week onwards. i don't know what to apply for in exco.

don't rly think i climbed much this week even though training has been five times a week these past few weeks. i'm going to stay at farrer till 11pm one day this term to climb baby yuuup. :D

gna make trainings more hiong for pumpfest. i don't want to be disappointed anymore heh.

practically don't even have to come to school on week10 la. -.- hbl for 3 days and arts day or sthg.. pactically 6 weeks of june holidays I AM GOING TO HONGKONG YAYYYY. 8DD esprits of the world unite!!((:

it's going to be term1 all over.. from week 5 onwards there'll be only 4 days a week of school due to nonsense holidays YAY so fun. 8DD

i'm very shag today travelled up and down heh had training in school at 8 as well till in rained.. silly downpour ):.

real coincidental..
dreamt about someone this morning & when I was woken up by mummy to go for training i could still feel that tinge of sadness sweeping through. it was just.. plainly sad. i can find no other way to express that simple sadness so i'll just leave the meaning encapsulated by that two words.):

then i went online and one of the first few top sites i had clicked on my bookmark bar had this recent formspring qns-

What does it mean when you keep dreaming about someone whom you used to love?
Sometimes that happens when you dont have closure. I learned about that last year in Psychology.

oh well.
~~gna update this post with more pictures tmrw; promise (:~~

/edited/

Novia & I at Boulderactive ^^

Frolick was Sannie's birthday present to me. Sitting down at some random place at Orchard to eat and talk is fun especially when it's Frolick, mmmhm. :D butbutttt. I found a better yoghurt store- Yoguru!

Novia treated us to that a week ago hahaha ^^

Escapades at Haji Lane for the third picture before Sammie's concert.

Sweet Sixteen, fourth picture.

teehee :).

I miss China butttttt I'M GOING TO HONGKONG TO SHOP BABAAAAAYE!;D

(although it's in 8 more weeks ):)

man-made sleigh ^^.

pink chocolately sweet sixteen cake, absolute love. xox ^^

Clar just smsed a sec ago HAHAHA conincidental XD

Joey & Clar @ Haji Lane!!:D:D
CLAR IS A EBIL SHE & J______ SUANS ME LIKE WHACKO EVERYDAY HOOKAYE )):

(that wasn't a suan okay it's a fact. pftttt. ):)

&& i think it's really cool to have chio polariods hung on strings glued to the walls of your room. (: or some polaroid montage.

i knw people who did it & they're pretty much awesome zomggg i'm gna do it during juneholidays kthx!!^^

RENJIE HAHAHAHA!!:D:D

omg I saw yangzhi yesterday & was like, OMGOMGOMGOMGGGGG.

seriously felt like Sec1, just that I needed to look up more while talking to him because he grew & I didn't. ): ruihuai is supersuper cute still hahaha!!((: (although he's also taller than me).

OMIGOSH I REALLY MISS 1A GUYS TTUM (to the uber max!!)

seriously, everyone's taller than me okay ): hehhh nvm~ +pulls face & runs away!+ xp

together or apart friends are always close to heart!(:

really cheesy ttm but I now really know the true meaning of that quote after going to IP but always feeling that much welcomed whenever I go back to AHS on random occasions.

Cos there's really alot of you lovely people out there who're always there to give me the biggest giganormous grin whenever i come back ♥

superrrrr grateful for everything ily thank you xiexie guys +megahugs+ ^^

queeeeeeenie was super cute yesterday heh!!

overall ed did a splendid job & R was soso cute zomg!!((x hahaha i wans't the only one who agreed okay XD

memories of the past few months ^^

now's 1am everyone's doing ih i'm on my mac singing to neyo's so sick and watching snsd videos~

so sick always make me feel better whenever i think of shitty stuff ahahaa!~

i owe someone the sorry sorry dance! must go learn this week hahaha :D:D

+ must go bake next week teehee me happy i wna go for musicfest plzzzzzzzzz.

i spend 99% of my free time tumblring ohgod it's addictive.

i want to do anything. reading watching videos playing retarded video games painting my nails electric colours and counting stars.

Eat that chocolate cake. Get your hair wet, love someone dance in those muddy puddles, laze around on a hammock, draw a picture with crayons like you're 6 years old and then give it to someone who kidnapped your heart. Stay in bed all day long, take long showers and smell the roses while on walks, go on a vacation, do a cartwheel, make your on recipe, dance like no one can see you, paint each nail a different color, take a bubble bath, laugh at a corny joke. Pick strawberries, take a jog, plant a garden, write a song, date someone you wouldn't usually go for, make a scrapbook, go on a picnic, kiss the un-kissed, hug your loved ones, and live your life to the fullest. So at the end of the day. you'll have no regrets, no sorrows, and no disappointments.

yno those a-z marshmallows cereals that they used to sell at the supermarket sometime back? i used to love digging into them and eating the marshmallows only because they were so sweet and fluffy. i think mum got pretty much agitated that i never ate the cereals themselves so she stopped buying them. they were abit too pricey, heh.

Someone once told me that the power in all relationships lies with whoever cares less, and he was right. But power isn't happiness, and I think that maybe happiness comes from caring more
about people rather than less.

change-the only constant.

2010-04-04T23:00:00.007+08:00

tumblr quotes are one heck of the greatest stories ever told.

aim of the week: reply all my ought-to reply smses. (no matter how many pages long they are.)

training 5 days a week, concert to look forward to on saturday yay thank god.

alot, alot, alot of rock members.

i had my fair share of sleep this week why must there be school tmr haiyoh. cca's draining enough that i look forward to going home even if school ends only at 5.25 every monday oh god.

pt is fuuuuun. :D but draining. it still makes me feel thinner hehzx yay.

~~5km~~+5sets of crutches pullups dolphins sprints jumps leglifts pushups +planks on saturday.

i will aim to do planks for 5mins hahahha become a plankton!:D

spent fri and saturday with the team. tuesday and wednesday as well. o.o

HAHAHA. nsscc+pumpfest & handover soon. mixed feelings heh. ):

pressure pressure pressure. i still feel unmotivated i don't want to think about it just focus okay bb girl keyide (:

believe+have faith+smile.

my blogposts are really boring nowadays heeeeeeh me knwww.

it all revolves around the same topics heh i know i have no life kthxbai but i'm still happy. ^^

8 Things People Seem To Forget

Blood is not always thicker than water.
Not everyone you love will love you back.
Things are always easier said than done.
It’s true when they say the hardest part is letting go.
Life goes on with or without you.
The truth always finds its way to the surface.
People come and go.
Someone always has it worse off than you.

Numb, speechless, I don't know.

2010-04-02T01:48:00.004+08:00

omg my tumblr popular page got deleted ): where am i going to find chio pictures naow!):

i had to twitter in class this week to prevent myself from falling asleep. i nodded off while copying la notes in class and almost slept through bio although I actually had a freaking 6hours' worth of sleep that day huuuuuh. D:

i was feeling very )': when i got home today & practically stoned at the table while (attempting to concentrate) on watching dramas but i couldn't pftttt so i ended up sleeping till 8.

never make someone your everything because when they're gone you have nothing.

but the only way to find true happiness is to risk being completely cut open.

I swear I've started suffering from pistanthrophobia.

ASDFJKL.

You were worth the fight, but I couldn’t fight forever.

It's irrelevant but it makes so much sense :D.
I shall go listen to 在这里分手 because it makes me happy.

It's a torrent of emotions and words that has unfeelingly rendered me numb.

let me just crawl back to bed kthanksbai ^^.

BEEEEEEEEED. :D

ohoh, I have apple strudel in my fridge, hurray!

food always makes me feel better.

2010-03-29T23:25:00.006+08:00

I have a new facebook picture!8DDDD

AHAHAHAH.

okay I'm going to sleep 15min after this I forgot what I wanted to post about again asdfjkl!!

training tmr I'm going pulau ubin to cycle on friday with dad mummy and mei YAYYYYYY!!:D:D

I feel like a small kid once again~ I think I behave damn immaturely nowadays lolol nvm (:

first I must let you guys see my chiochio poster i stayed up till 2am+ during even though there was training the next day!!:D:D (& i continued doing it after training just before the concert hookay 8D)

Whole poster thing was too big for a picture to be fully taken ahaha okay not so exaggerated but yno, i was lazeeeeeh. :D

i look damn retarded in this photo but this is not the point. -.-

the main focus of the picture is chip. or dale. FREAAAAKING CUTE RIGHT!!

another photo of me and chippy (:

yes it's the leather jacket 12 got me YAYYY! ♥

+super huge megagiganormousgrin+ :D:D

I'm damn hungry nowadays ):

which means= more money to spend on food (less savings!)

I think training and all has allowed my energy level to hit an all-time low.

but still must eat and also exercise if not wait get fat!! I want to grow taller teeeheeee +ignores everyone's suans+ pfttt ):

thanks to this girl I wasn't a loner during the concert!

+megahugs+ I haven't passed you your postcard! HAHAHA. :D:D

anyw I think I'm irritated very easily nowadays because I just feel super tired everyday. :/

I apologise in advance if I unknowingly black-faced/moodswang/pissed anyone off recently (as of last week lolol~).

I slept in class thrice last week I think hehhh.

today during dinner time I looked at my soup, shook the bowl, and thought about something super lol. -.-''

sthg wrong with me nowadays +pulls face+.

I officially have a freaking 5 weeks of june holidays HAH in everyone's face kthxbai.

then i'm going to work at B&J during dec holidays yayyyy! 8DD

teeheee free cone day was awesomezxz!! managed to skip vog with Sher and Jo, bus-ed to Cathay and queued for an hour and a half before we got our free scoop! cookie affair was good hahaha. :D

went back to school for 20min of PT after that at 7.45pm.

super retarded -.-''

I spent my time just thinkin' thinkin' thinkin' bout you
Every single day, 'cause I'm really missin' missin' you
And all those things we used to used to used to used to do.

aweeeesome song it's got me trippin' mmhmm. 8D

okay my time is up i'm going to sleep for 6h+ today YAYYY!!

goodnight sunflowers and dandelions! ♥

2010-03-26T23:09:00.002+08:00

I ish doomed doomed doomed!!

oh god someone spell out, D-O-O-M-E-D!!

I just got home I have so much freaking work to do it's 11.12pm now I haven't started on Sannie's awesomething!!

OHYMGOSH HOWHOW SHIFT111111!!

+runs arnd screaming doom+

DD:!!

I have training tmr at 9am it's freaking leading OHMYGOD THERE'S THE FREAKING OVERHANG HOWHOWHOW SHIFT111111 EVEN MORE OMIGOSH ASDFJKL !AIEEEEEE

and the best part is I want to just fall asleep but I haven't even bathed.

on a sidenote,

today was zomgfuntastic I went haji lane for the first time with sunshines and then went for sammie's concert YAYYYY great job girl we bought her bright yellow cheerful sunflowers just like her!^^

I MET MY SUPERBOY/aka SANNIE(!) AT THE END OF THE DAY OUTSIDE THE MRT (& finally got my cds ticket!!) yay yayyy can't wait to see him performing tmrw he's so freeeeeeeeeeeaking cute!:D:D

I think I'm the only Sec4 going tmr howwww!):

Nvm, at the meantime I shall go back to doing his present- someone remind me to get roses for the rest tmr please kthx.

SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP.

autumn concerto damn nice and differentiation kills brain cells!^^

2010-03-22T01:06:00.003+08:00

listening to 新不了情; it's 1.12am now.
can't sleep- its been a while since those lingering thoughts attacked me with a vengence.
for the planetiers, satellites and sunflowers that are entwined.
goodnight, universe.

2010-03-21T01:12:00.006+08:00

hello bb (:

i woke up with raindrops hitting gently against my window seal today, such a pretty saturday morning feel. ^^

maroon 5's sunday morning started playing in my head, it was 11.05am and I couldn't help but roll over and feel at peace. probably cause today had been the only freaking day i actually got to sleep in till late morning but still, the warm feeling of your toes wrapped around your fuzzy blanket and that weekend morning feel- it's pure heaven. second to none, simply pleasant.

draining week.

there was rock camp on monday. waited at ecp with charlie for the teams, crashed macs for brunch and slacked at the bowling alley before we went back to the beach and made the teams do pt. went to his house to shower after that. it was more like,

"uh aud, towel. go bathe, we need to be back in school by 4.30."

"okay."

after half an hour-

he still found me sitting in his room eyes glued to china mtv.

lolol~

he played jay chou songs on the guitar zomgggg super nice! sang, watched mtv and all before we left for school- without me taking a bath in the end. hahahaha.

新不了情 is beginning to sound super nice to me yayy!

watched climbing videos and all then prepared for the next day. some of us stayed back to do PT. PTed till 8.30pm in school, then left for parkway with the climbers. the meepok there super nice yay now got pepper lunch express already hahaha!! we played in the playground outside macs like small kids hahaha~! anissa's dad fetched both of us over to her house to shower before bringing us to bs's house hahaha. reached his house at around 12.30am yuuuup. stayed up, zihighed, ate, screamed and laughed and did alot of damn retarded things i think we grew abs the next day. i swear climbers are most capable of zihighing like kuku. played cards till 3am+ then couldn't stand it anymore so turned in. super early la, wasted.

woke up at 8am+, all 6 of us left bs's house for yishun safra at 10am.

set routes till 1pm at the bouldergym for the juniors. omigosh that place is always super cold ttm. juniors came, did dyno comp and all. climbed for super long la zomggg productive day heh imma happy! I love flat walls YAY. left yishun at 9pm, went for dinner with the team at manhattan's fish market! reached home at 11pm.

woke up for smp on wednesday, did ih project afterwards, went to the airport, then came home.

woke up for smp on thursday, went for rock, did highwalling, had pt, then went ehub to catch remember me with dad mum and sis. oh god robert pattinson! +le faintehs+ he's not exactly hot but his character was quite well played. i think the show's quite meaningful can silly people who refuses to admit that it is!

fell asleep doing chinese on thursday, woke up early on friday to continue.

went for rock on friday, i got my level two lead climbing cert yayayyy!! the team gave me a chio hot pink tile as a super belated birthday present, i'm going to hang it on my bag (if i'm able to somehow find a way to!) hahahaa!! it's pink! hot pink! +runs around !aieeeeeee+

left at 3 to go iceskating! skated the whole 2h and i didn't fall at all yay yayy! went just acia with dad mum and mei afterwards! i think mocha is the best ice cream flavour there, mmmmhm.

spent the whole day at home making myself do homework. then falling asleep while trying to help dad with the computer till 7.30pm when i woke up for dinner and continued procrastinating and eventually completed bionomial hw, biology ws, biology circulatory system notes and ih. HAHAHAHAHA.

i slept at 4am yesterday clearing my IP1 stuff and doing that thing sher asked me to do okay!! hahahaha but i think the thing too small to contain everything leh sher howhow!! alamak!

nevermind~

I'M GOING OUT TODAY. HAHAHAHAHA.

after I sleep that is.

hahahahaha.

edith damn funny! +waves if you're reading this+

we must slap those stupid people okay! slapslapslapslap~ cos they don't deserve such nice treatment from us right!! go and die asdfghjkl!!

HAHAHAHA!!

okay I'm still going out today. what movie to watch next!

mmkay that's all i want to blog about, 70% of this week filled with rock.

THERE'S B&J FREE CONE DAY NEXT TUESDAY OMIGOSH I CAN'T WAIT!!

I'm going to queue up until I'm chased out of the shop!~

HUUUUH if it's Sports Day I don't care, Ice Cream more important kthxbai.

pt on wednesday & thursday, sammie's concert on friday, sannie's concert on saturday, birthday dinner on sunday.

does the director get the biggest bouquet of flowers!! wait sannie's fc give him one super big bouquet of flowers then he forget about my flowers howhow!! or wait i give him super alot of roses then his fc jealous humtum me how leh!! OHMYGOSH. how leh!

i know what to give him already.

YAYYYY okay i just saved myself from the murderous glares of his fc. (:

caludia demanded that i give her a soft toy..super lol ttm! i think i'm going to pick up some flowers on friday teeeheee. pretty red roses yay yayy!

overused word to describe me this week is goldfish.

eric said my eyes were unusually superdamnbig on friday during rock! oh god.

don't know how many time i was called goldfish this week.. pft )x

audrey apparently looks like an only child who has a I-have-a-boyfriend-face and is an ahlian.

-quoted by ____. +cough+

I totally o____O when I heard that~.

it made me laugh LOLOL HAHAHAHAHA. :D

okay la the first two claims aren't new but the third one is a new addition to the first-impression-you-get-of-audrey family.

HAHAHAHA. (:

still, not true. ^^

No more reasons left to stay.

2010-03-15T00:31:00.006+08:00

You can try your hardest - you can do everything within your means but sometimes people just aren’t worth it anymore. They aren’t worth all the tears and worrying, and it’s important to know when to let go of someone who only brings you down.

You can feel when someone you hold close to your heart is slipping away, little by little. It’s when the mere thought of losing a friend can bring you to tears almost instantly. The pain you are beginning to feel can crush your entire heart. Yet everything that you try to do to solve the problems only push them further and further away from you. When the only chance of getting back to the way things were in the beginning is to hope this person realized what they may be losing.

enough quotes to tell me to follow my heart and not stick by any longer?

stayovr @ boonie's house with rock today mhmm.
eyes are red and swollen; cried so much today shit. (how to go school with contacts tmrw!!)
it's a better day aud, it's a better day. (L).
anyway ahahahah I don't give a shit about you anymore. that's all you're worth because I deserve much better. sucks.
I'm only leaving because I have no more reasons left to stay.
okay I'm done.
I ish happppy YAYY. 8DDD.
!does milo dance then goes to sleep.
AHAHAHAHAH. :D:D

2010-03-13T23:34:00.004+08:00

In a really stonic mood right now.

Going to watch Bernice and Jin climb in the finals tmrw, allehz guys!(L)

Then watch the rest of the categories till night.

Life after RTs have been climbing, climbing and climbing. Climbed after Math paper on Thursday, Boulderactive yesterday, Watched NM qualifiers today, watching finals tomorrow. Climbing camp on Monday to Tuesday, Climbing course on Friday.

Just want to continue climbing climbing and climbing. Adrenaline rush.

Competition was hookaye. Climbed the 2nd route and was like, uh why is my palm red. Skin peeled, had a flapper that oozed blood halfway through competition lolol~. had it taped then continued climbing although the blood didn't stop flowing during the competition. first flapper hahahaha imma proud kiddo mmhm.

Climb, climb, climb. If you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain. Here's to term 2, filled with nothing less than at least thrice a week trainings. Satisfaction. ^^

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no-one but yourself and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

2010-03-12T00:49:00.008+08:00

thank you to everyone who made my birthday a sweet sixteen. ^^

I'll try to do up a post soon encapsulating the (hectic) past two weeks.

Underperformed in Gravical last Thursday. Results were really really disappointing, I was quite upset. Came home and thought about alot of things.

Parents, Climbing, Studies, SMP, other commitments.

I wanted to balance all of them perfectly.

I wanted to please everyone.

But I guess last Thursday really made me ask myself if I was doing it all correctly. Balancing all of them at one shot, missing trainings to go for SMP and vice versa cos they clash, dropping grades and parents, parents and climbing schedules. Sleeping real late just to complete assignments after training which is thrice a week.

Talked to Eric on the bus on the way to Farrer last week;

What he said made sense.. I will never be able to please anyone, so I should just do whatever I feel is right. But I guess responsibilities come before this. I've been torn between balancing everything and choosing what matters more to me because I wanted to make everyone happy.

Whenever I miss training for SMP, I'll feel like I disappointed coach and the team (totally what I felt like last week). If I leave SMP early for training I'll feel like I disappointed you two. & when that happens, I stay to train up till 9+ for the time lost, reach home at 11+ from Farrer, and feel guilty for coming home so late & making my parents so unhappy. I felt (and still do feel) very guilty for spending so little family time with them nowadays.

Felt damn pissed and ..God after a while because people pulled and tugged and it was shit pressurizing. Last week put an end to it because I sat down after Gravical on thursday, and talked to dad and mum about their expectations of me- studies and everything going on as well. Made adjustments to my schedule and all heh.

I hate it when everyone possess such high expectations of you. I'm not supergirl.

Guess it's more or less better now, fingers crossed things it'll turn out better or better than expected yup!!((:

I believe things will turn out the way it ought to & whatever happens, I'll be a stronger person!(:

I took two days to type this post hahaha!:D:D

because I left my mac turned on till 6am this morning when I was supposed to turn it off halfway through the night after waking up just to complete this post. -.-

Damn sleepy last night la. Completed Math paper then went for training at 3pm. Climbed till only 7 plus cos of the competition today then went for Rock dinner ^^ Reached home at 10plus and did stuff till 2am. HAHAHAHA was still texting till 2am on the morning of Math paper la. 4h of sleep 8DD.

I'm going to watch Autumn Concerto & Down With Love this holidays YAY YAYYY!:D:D albeit it'll be a busybusy one hehhhh.

Monday Tuesday Climbing Camp, Weds SMP & Project, Thursday SMP+going out YAYYY!, Friday Climbing and Family Time Iceskating/catching a movie triple backflip YAYYY!!:D:D (L)

Don't really know what to do.. You don't know how upset and frustrated you make me feel sometimes. I stopped expecting much of you months ago, but is it so difficult to reciprocate the feelings of someone who's always been there for you? It makes me sad whenever I think about it and it's ironic that you mean.. alot to me. I hope one day you'll start to realise that those people that stick with you through your ups and downs are the ones you actually really ought to treasure, and not those that momentarily sweep you off your feet. To loved and be loved. Right now, I'm giving my all & probably much more because when it comes to you it's become a natural thing. That's why when I'm hurt it's really really hurt kind of hurt. The feeling sucks ttm. But I'm going to persevere even if I become jaded, because seeing you happy makes me feel more assured. Don't remind me- I have no idea why the hell you mean so freaking much to me.

Went out with 12 after full day today.

reached school at 9am+ to put the rock consent forms at the hangboard, then waited for Sammie till 10 plus and left for Bugis. Went to Orchard afterwards for Boulderactive. Average climb, at least I didn't underperform. ~ (:

Going down to support the guys at Orchard Central tmrw, I'm quite happy the team dynamics is stronger. once competition was over and everyone went home encouragements and jiayous started pouring in hehhhhzx.

Good Luck for today's Novice Men guys!8DD

Keyide ALLEZ(!) AHAHAHAHAH!!:D:D

most importantly must smile even when the going gets tough.

everyone's fighting their own battles, it's whether they show it or not.

Have Faith, Believe and Smile.

A Little Less Sixteen Candles, A Little More Touch Me.

2010-02-25T22:23:00.005+08:00

Take the good with the bad,

Smile with the sad

Love what you've got,

Remember what you've had,

Always forgive,

Never forget,

Learn from mistakes,

But never regret.

People change,

Things go wrong,

But you've got to remember,

Life goes on.

before I turned six freaking sixteen in ~~two hours'~~ wait, one hours' thirty five minute's time, I want to blog my last 15 year old post.

I think I've grown alot in the past few years and I regretted some things I did butbuttttt. overall I think my past fifteen years of my life had been HAHAHAHAHA. :D:D

Zomg I can officially watch NC16 movies as of one hours' thirty-one freaking minutes. Zomigosh this is so exciting. 8D!

I still have alot to learn and no I shall not make this a boring fifteen year old post.

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen feeling like there's nothing to figure out
Well, count to ten, take it in
This is life before you know who you're gonna be
Fifteen.

amidst the ~~emoness (2009!)~~ it was like, max two terms only ok!!!8DD, angst, retardedness (as of naaaaaaow!) and ZOMGGG anticipation (partly becuase I saw mei's birthday card to me OMGOMG there's a picture of taeyang there somewhere AND IT'S FREAKING PINK!! ♥) I think being sixteen is so.. sweet. ^^

SWEET SIXTEEEEEEN YAYYY!♥

I won't attempt to write out the long list of things I expect myself to do/be when I'm sixteen, I won't make promises I'm unsure whether or not I can keep, I can't comprehend myself (still). :/

I think age has made me more aware of stuff and therefore more unknowing. YUUUUUP. :D

Did I mentioned that I have always envisioned my Sweet Sixteen to be filled with tons of pink balloons like those you see on MTV My Super Sweet Sixteen and a pink God-knows-how-many-layers-there-are cake.

HAHAHAHAHA.

One hour eleven more minutes to go I want to sleep but I want to stay up to countdown zomggg. HEHHHHHHZX. :D

2010-02-16T01:17:00.005+08:00

只因为你我情不自禁闭上眼睛心里想了想还是你.

I feel so unaccomplished. ):

Srsly can pass of as a male la.

Everyone say hello to zoooooooo. HELLO ZOOOOOO(:

Fresh fruit salad and prawns with mayonnaise owns my heart hands down.

Surprised Aman outside her house with her birthday present in hand today. Thank God she was in, that girl was so shocked hahahaha. This picture is going to be my itouch wallpaper for a really really long time. ^^

Love you woman!:D

2010-02-14T23:35:00.007+08:00

yno the feeling of knowing there's someone who'll always be there for you, who can keep you up awake all night just by crossing your mind, but at the same time who you have no fatal attraction towards? it's such a peculiar feeling, but it's adding that sparkle into my eyes.

Anyway,

This post is dedicated to Amanda Liong Yuan Wen!

Hello girl happy happy birthday to you:D

Happy birthday to you, Happy birthday to you, Happy birthday to youuu, Happy birthday to you!

I love you to bits and pieces girl thank you for being such a star although we don't really meet up much and get to talk to each other loads and all I want you to know that there's this special irreplaceable place in my heart for you; for all the times that we've stuck through each other and all. it's kind of amazing that we were only in the same class for the first two years of our lives in SACPS but were still super close due to the bus rides home with the chicken rice shop game with abi and the rest ahahahaha. things have happened yuuup and I only found them out through what others said because we're in different schools butbut I want you to know that no matter what you're going through I'm only 8 numbers away and it might seem random for you to call me up on any random day but I wouldn't mind it the least bit just to be there for you(: the pencil you bought me for my 8th birthday is still with me hahaha:D we were never the type of best friends who would call each other up every single day and gossip and all but the kind who would silently support each other and go through thick and thin together heh. The last time I saw you was a month back at the mrt station but I didn't get to talk to you at all cos we were headed in direction directions up/down the escalator zomg ): I really really miss you like zomgasdfjkl it's horrible man!): but anyway, thanks for all the things you've done for me and I'm really glad to have you as a best friend for 11 whole years, you've been such a joy aman!:D the girl who's given me many of my firsts:

my first best friend, the first person I knew in Primary School, the first person close to me whom I've never quarelled with before (even up till now it's actually amazing), the first person whose house number had been the first I remembered, the first person to write a mailed christmas card/letter thing to me with contents that made me cry and the first person to spring a big surprise on me by standing in front of my doorstep on my birthday, with my present in hand.

People walk in and out of your life, but only true friends leave footprints in your heart.

You already did it so effortlessly Aman, I love you till the ends of the world.

Happy Sweet Sixteen Best Friend, you had my heart, soul and my support in the past, and it's safe to say that you'll still have them for many many more years to come.

I can envision each other 30 years down the road having high tea together. ~ HAHAHAHA. :D

I love you dear girl! You mean mountains to me. :D

2010-02-07T01:40:00.003+08:00

if I drive a hundred thousand miles, would you let me stay awhile?

I have no idea why I'm blogging when I'm so sleepy and have a pile of homework to complete.

4 days' worth of Math worksheets+2homework, Photosynthesis to catch up on, Chemistry worksheet to do.

Super sleepy will go and sleep.

Just looked at the timetable for this term..

I am not going to school for a full whole week/5 days this whole term except on Week 9. o.o LOLOL. How leh, if this continues I'm going to die during Term 2 hahaha crap no more nonsense holidays~

Going to the airport to send daddy off to Aussie in 5hr's time, I am severely sleep deprived & it's all my fault. Booo my homework hasn't even evaporated.

Someone tell me what to get for Valentine's!(:

edit 10th feb 12:34am/

this is retarded I'm sleeping at some ungodly hour all the time.

my schedule: monday come back at 7 YAY SL..(lol), tuesday, thursday, fridays come back at 10 earliest cos of rock, wednesday whatever timing the S&T lab closes cos of SMP. omg orchids.

which basically means I come home and do homework/project/mug till some freaking 1am plusplus every night.

my life is awesomeeeeeee.

nvm hehhhhhzx.

I am still a happy kid who suddenly had an epiphany the other day I know what extra CCA imma gna join next year zomggggg. :D

still have a pile of homework stuff to do, will chiong tmrw yay yay coming back at 7 cos of science centre talk. sheeeeesh.

technically my current homework are all labelled under "CNY homework" which basically. just means that I'm going to GG during CNY.

have fun audrey YAY thank you!

mmkay shall go sleep now. zoooom my grades are slipping. D:

2010-02-06T01:42:00.005+08:00

Uploaded pictures till 3.30am on photobucket last night while I slept.

Yay Yay I woke up with text messages in my inbox one of which has Cat saying that she's going to join Rockclimbing!:D:D

Loads of juniors as well haha. (:

Training this week had been horrible though, but what Anissa said was true. Yuuuup. (:

While slacking in the LT.. We have officially created the IP cheer on 2nd February!;D

VVVVV, V12!:D

PSLs '1o ^^

Went to crash Clar's house after Sea Regatta to bathe.

Bathe, talked, ate, played with Russell then left for Suntec.

Realised that I haven't taken a picture with Nest before so I SMSed him on thursday saying that we must!:D

Think we talked super alot this week la phonecalls everyday heh.

Was brooding over what you said after hanging up last night.

I have no idea how you can tolerate me but somehow you just do. :/ Thanks Boo.

I shall make this happy after all that happened yesterday.

Thank you 12, you guys were such stars. We were shocked that you guys still wanted to go for mass dance. Thank you guys, so so much for the support and encouragement/cheering up even though you guys were the ones who were majorly affected by it. (L).

Russell looks quite freaked out LOLOL. XD :x

Finally get to sit back with my deskbuddy on Wednesday and sing You belong With Me!:D

She's damn cute!

SMSed me at 1am Friday morning telling me that she has finally stayed up late to complete an assignment! HAHAHAHAH Maaaa so cute!^^

This week has been crazy, hurtful, hectic, sad, disappointing and a whole load of crap feelings. I keep thinking about what you said.

Everyone has their own battles to fight.

2010-02-03T00:55:00.002+08:00

Very often a change of self is needed more than a change of scene.

take today like it is, learn and don't look back.

because the past is history, the future a mystery, but now's the present.

today was/still is unsettling.

Iono how to reply you. goodnight.

2010-01-31T15:29:00.004+08:00

I am in a bad mood.

Facebook is freaking lag it should go spork itself with nutella and drown in bleach or sthg I NEED PICTURES FOR MY ROCKCLIMBING SLIDES SHEESH.

on top of that I think I'm pmsing today.

I'm going to sleep, bye.

edited/1:34am

I need to wake up at 5.50 tmrw ohhotdamn. :/

Butttt. I have completed all my homework except for math! HAH. so hardworking yay yay! 8DD

technically I finished talking on the phone just half an hour ago but still. HAHAHAHA.

I completed my zuowen after that, nyeh. :P

Happy (late) birthday MNSJ!:D

I'm only putting the ugly picture of me there because you're there and you look gorgeous ^^

(L) you!(:

I am in love with SIX.

The bracelet on the left is worth $3. Super chio right!:D

Bought a purple necklace yuuuup too. $3 hahaha happy ttm:D

Nat looks pretty in the antique glow. (:

Look at Ili's bracelets/bangles man. ZOMG.

Lesson of the day: Carl's Jnr drinks are refillable. LOL.

I like the middle picture, it makes me feel tall. HAHA.

That is my eye okay!D:

So it'll get tag in facebook like a gazillion times HAHAHAHA.

Mmkay 2:22am now FML.

I only have three and a half hours of sleep I think I'm chionging home after Orientation tmr..-.-''

Monday: JCO till 6pm, Sub-OG Dinner till God knows what time. ):

Tuesday: JCO till 6.30pm, Rock till 8..?/OG dinner after JCO :/

Not worth going leh booo ): travel time already 1hr+. besides that there's probably going to be Mass OG dinner omg. :/

Wednesday: Rock presentation (hopefully!), Math test :/, CCA Orientation till 6.30pm, don't know if there's rock dinner afterwards.

Thursday: Chinese Presentation, Lessons, Rock+Rock Dinner till 10+.

Friday: Sea Regatta in the morning, Suntec Mass Dance @ 7.30pm!:D:D

Saturday: Church (?) + Reunion dinner

Sunday: Send Nickykorkor off @ Airport

Technically that means Monday: Chiong Math test, Tuesday: I will come home and to hell with homework, Wednesday: Do Chinese Script, and uh. What's Bio test. Thursday I will fall asleep in class. Friday I will remember to bring Sunblock and CAN WE HAVE A CLASS OUTING AFTER THAT THEN WE CAN CRASH SUNTEC DANCE AS A CLASS TOO!! YAY YAYYYY :D:D!!

Saturday and Sunday used to catch up with Math. Currently have three worksheets piling up (none of which I've attempted to understand) plus the ones this week.. Goodluck Audrey YAY thank you!:D

I am listening to dance dance at 2:37am on a Monday morning.

& have yet to reply most of my messages since 17hr ago.

No I do not owe you Sakae, kthanksbye.

AHAHAHAHAH.

2010-01-30T00:09:00.004+08:00

Note to self: I have homework.

Another note to self: Never wear pink under the freaking VJ uniform.

Wlau walked out of the toilet looked damn obvious la -.-. Malu ttm-.-

JCo is slack but it makes me shag.

Orientation makes me disorientated whenever I come home. Because I'll stone in front of my lappie FBing before realising that I haven't eaten my dinner, my eyes hurts like kuku, and I have an awesome pile of homework for me to do (which hopefully I'll understand).

Sentosa today I just forgot what I wanted to blog about oops.

Pictures spam next!

it's 1:54am naow just hung up. :D

I MISS PEOPLE IN CLASS.

Thank you Maaaaa! I hope you find your wedges and it's okay, I'm fine being shorter than you. ):

Kor & Jo must train that nyahnyahnyah mouth thingy before I come back so we can all do it tgt omg hahaha!!:D:D

I am sleep deprived I woke up at the same time today just to meet Nest in school to slack. compare timetable/breaks next week! I'm glad you're feeling better cos Imma can't smile without you boo. :D finally a week of proper non-melodramatic conversations not punctuated with deafening silence made me realise that I miss talking to you (normally) so damn much hehhhz. :D

HE LIKES MY BROWNIES OKAY.

So cute YAY I pass hahahaha. :D

(I know you're totally smiling at this la rightright!!:D)

but Clar & Jo said must bake them longer, will try YAYYY thank you guys!(L)

我成功了!:D

Busy week ahead.

Everyone, Jiayous!:D

Ohoh & Thank you Sannie for the dilemma talk just now over Electives!:D

Superboy hahahaha. :D

ZOMG RAMESH'S HOUSECOMM BADGE IS STILL WITH ME.

& Natasha called me handsome today OMG I miss her to bits and pieces she looks different(!!)

so baby are you downdowndowndowndownnnn~

current song stuck in meh head. ):

2010-01-27T22:43:00.003+08:00

school is fuuuuuuuuuun!:D

don't think we've been hit that badly by the horrendous effect of being an IP2 yet, but still.

:D!

JC Oriention tmrw wheeee~

I baked Brownies for 12 so they'll have stuff to chew on during class tmrw ahahaha YAY YAY!:D

Aaron told me to blog so I am blogging now. HURRAY.

I am going to spend the rest of my breaks growing orchids. hurray hurray!

AHAHAHAH. Jo Clar Clar Jo JIAYOUS!!:D:D

Sitting next to Ma is fuuuuun. :D She calls me spastika boo & she's just.. OKAY NVM. HAHAHAHA. ~ CAFEWORLD LOLOL!!

Mass Dancing tmrw superrrrrr fun!:D + Electives walkabout.

Had SMP/OGL Meeting/Rock Banner painting/IH briefing (thank God it ended early!O:) at the same time today.

Omigosh.

IH Briefing ended early so discussed the Chemistry project then went for SMP, left at 4 and realised OGL meeting ended so went to the canteen with Clar to buy food, talked to juniors then went to help out at rock.

I love the rock people they're so spastic hahahaha (L) :D:D.

Came home at 10pm+ yesterday after training. I can't go for training tmrw having OG dinner and debrief for JCO omgwtsbbq )):

I was pissed off for very retarded reasons during rock yesterday that made them seniors laugh at me. -.-

talked on the phone till 1am+ then wrote letters and slept. I am sleep deprived. ):

Dental, IC appointment in the morning, SurfSunSand BEEEEEEACH sentosa FTW in the afternoon this saturday!:D

Happy Birthday MNSJ Tofuex & Nats Ahmah (L) you both!(:

HELLO SANNIE I BLOGGED. (:

(L) you to bits, smile!!(:

2010-01-24T01:51:00.006+08:00

AUDREYKUMRUILIN IS ORGASMIC.

because she finally found inspiration for her gossip girl inspired outfit.

I hope it turns out good, gives me more reason to buy a (black) leather jacket.

I have decided on what presents to get them, triple backflip yay for shopping spree today.

It's Sher's birthday today! Happy Sweet Sixteen woman! Love you to bits!!:DD

A pink Ipod touch playing on a neat desk with a nice white Macbook with its owner dancing to FOB's dancedance makes my sunny little Sunday post-morning ^^

2010-01-22T21:44:00.008+08:00

Renjie: HEY CHIOBU!
Audrey: Who me?
Renjie: YES YOU!
Audrey: OH MEEE~(!!)

someone tell me how to continue please ahahaha rj and I stop at the fourth line everyday we need a continuation of this!8DD

it makes me laugh alot HAHAHA. (I'm not living in self denial thank you bye. ):)

super shag like siaow will sleep after eating my ramly from yesterday ahahah.

it's only 9.52 uh :/.

just came back from boonlay.. the end of the mrt tracks (not inclusive of jookoon lolol) omg.. -.- one end to the other. went for SMP with Jo & Clar after class lunch, took the teacher's car to NIE. Prof. gave us a briefing about the project and SSEF for around an hour and a half. inclusive of talks about agar being made of jellyfish & coconut water I think he probably thought that we're really super dumb students heh so paiseh Dx. he was nice but I spent my time staring at the clock wondering what time he would dismiss us so that I could go home and sleep. LOL. went to jurong poin which is totally not located at jurong at all kthanks to get donuts and find stuff then went home. reached home at arnd 8plus heh.

completion of the in-vitro flowering thing on week 8, 大家加油!!:D:D

we have very few tests this semester hehzx I'm lucky ^^.

early dismissal this week I've been texting/eating/laughing practically every lesson.

yesterday we got our physics hw back!!D:

I got 13/14 and marie got one mark less butbut Ms Cai still gave her Good Job but didn't for me!!)):

So I went to write good job myself. HAHAHAHAH Marie was laughing at me LOLOL. so smart right!8D omg I feel so immature YAY. 8DD

spammed the physics paper with scandalous stuff. LOL. -.- We made Ms Cai damn pissed off haha. But she was still damn nice to us la +guilty+.

the third officially day of lessons resuming.

So far, we have missed assembly once, & were late for classes at least thrice. Wl imbaaaaa. -.-

went to climb on tuesday and thursday. I can feel myself improving hahaha!!((: was super happy on thursday ^^. rock meeting at 3.15, then went to climb afterwards till 9. Bernice's dad fetched us to White Sands then Eugenia, Novia & I went to get Ramly & bubble tea hahaha. reached home at 10, bathed, watched american idol, procrastinated against reading the cheeeeena book, then read it for another 30 pages and decided that my beauty sleep was more important than the chinese test today. -.-

chionged the other 20 pages in school this morning during math LOLOL.~

Sammie no voice!! AHAHAHAHA so fun to suan but I didn't suan much lor just sang Nobody~ :)

Eric taught me the Loser song on the bus on the way to ClimbAsia, AHAHAHAHA we're all seriously damn loser la. ~

I forgot what I wanted to say but nvm let the pictures do the talking I just want to sleep rawrr.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERILYNN DEAR!(L)

Love you manymanymany!! thank you for always being there for me xox's!

Clar did the collage for her & I did the notebook plusplus we got her a (sleek slim chio) black Rusty wallet and an Artbox eraser HAHAHA.

Funny shots!:D

TREE MOZZZZZZZZZIE!:D

MY EYES ARE BROWN AND BIG! 8D HAHAHA.

Marie damn cute la!:D

I koped Clar's space on the right and spammed it with my pink pen so she had to continue her message at the back instead. LOL haha sorry :X

The whole family!:D

(Left to right: Up Syndrome Jiejie, Mummy, Kor, Down Syndrome Meimei.)

HAHAHAH!

edit/next batch of pictures:

I fell asleep with my lappie turned on yesterday till 4am+..stupid photos failed to upoad lol -.-

I want to go climb. o.o''.

NEW CCA YAY YAY YAYY! Bizclub Lighthink Earthwatch CIC Interact!:D:D

think CIC very fun but need to be first CCA I guess. :/ Booo )x

Can't wait for CCA Orientation hehzx Rock's booth's gonna gonna own YAY!:D:D

Okay it's 9.56am I just woke up..

Haven't brushed teeth/eaten breakfast etcetc.. Just grabbed my laptop and started uploading more photos HAHAHA. Zueeeeey wants me to upload more picture on facebook!:D:D

spread out across my bed with the aircond turned on while I'm sing the lappie.. I slept for 10hours omg shuangness to the max!8DD

Gnna see whether I can bribe Mummy to go aston's for dinner~

I am suffering from severe dehydration and fatigue. -.-

Nose keep bleeding-.-

Sannie got me a ticket for CDS alr!!:D:D

(The last one lol :D)

New Seating arrangement makes me able to love Marie more and she can 一脚踏三船!!

NO I DON'T WANT TO GO INTO A RELATIONSHIP W/YOU ANYMORE, REJECT! DD:

Okay Imma gnna bathe then write letters and all DDD:

Last episode of Hi My Sweetheart tmr!^^

Pictures from SLC!

Trees and plants ftw!! WE ARE TALL.

YAY SAMMIEZX!!8D

Last picture trying to act emo.. with three extras behind doing a great job of ruining the picture HAHAHA. :D Vishy looks funny ahahaha!:D:D

Zara Leather jackets OMG.

Xiaojun & Sammie very cute hahaha!:D:D

I am compelled to believe that my hair looks nicer in the picture on the left (YAY for fringe!:D) & that I am soon going to owe a leatherjacket as well because I look nice in it.

LEATHER JACKETS OF THE WORLD UNITE!!:D:D

HELLO MARIE.

THIS PART IS FOR YOU.

SOON-TO-BE-DESK-PARTNER LET'S EAT AND LAUGH ALOT DURING CLASS ALRIGHT!:D

(L) you! ^^

Asked to go out by two people alr hehzx whuuuuuut am I doing today!)):

I need dad & mum to come home first before I can go out DDD:

Sian supposed to go Vivo today but postponed to tmr eeeyer.

Nvm, can get more inspirations for my CNY gossip girl inspired wear.

back to sleep, 1pm now~

made the wrong decision.. but I don't regret. :D thank you to a few people who tolerated all my whining and complaining and asdfjkl when E & I were best friends. We're friends now I hope it's better because we got into alot of arguments after being besties. probably because our expectations and all were higher and yadayada. thank you E, although I know we probably wouldn't be as close now more or less because you have others by your side, but you taught me stuff. I did my best to tolerate, forgive and forget, and put in much more than I ever had into the friendship so no matter what I'm happy. See you around in VJ (:

2010-01-19T23:00:00.003+08:00

OMIGOSH OMIGOSH OMIGOSH!

I have so many things to do !aieee omigosh omigosh hahaha!!

I'm not joining LFS anymore no more leading hahahaha!!

There're jnrs who want to join rock yay yay!!~~ :D:D

I went for rock after InV!, 1hr of bouldering oh man.

Senior complaining about commitments on the way back home made me feel more grateful about the life Imma living.

Thank you everyone who made InV!gorate 2010 a success (amidst the crazy schedule and overrunning cancelling of matches stuff).

I said the f word like damn alot of times today. D:

super funny ahahah, cos he was damn -.- & epic whatttt.

D: I just repeated what he said okay~

& THE BEST NEWS OF THE DAY +prepares oneself+...

I PASSED MY FREAKIN' CHEMISTRY R' PAPER BABYYYYY!:D:D

26.5/50.

I studied less than 4hr for the dumb thing la inclusive of Marcus Salt Prep crash course HAHAHAHA. & I freaking passed it HAHAHAHAHA YAYYYYY~ :D:D

THANK YOU MARCUS!! Don't know if you read this but I told you I'll thank you on my blog so yup!:D

I went around hugging everyone in 12 after getting the paper back haha Sherilynn and Joshua both accompanied me then we stood outside LT5 to cool my coke and get aircond immazomg!:D

Class outing to ICC & I missed it to go for CCA I LOVE ROCKCLIMBING YAY THANKS. :D:D

Me: Where's markers (Marcus)? +searches E.Hub for markers+
Shawn: +pauses+. Ask Me (Azmi).

Omigawd the whole Ehub tio stun then burst into laughter ahahaha. :D

okay end of story.

I am going to start on my cheeeeena storybook & reply my damn alot of messages now at 11.13 pm.

I hope school ends ar 1.20pm tmr got to decorate stuff at home yupyup ^^

OH AND.

-ADVERTORIAL-

CDS IS HAVING SOME PERFORMANCE THINGUM @ AHS TOWER HALL on 27th and 26th March, confirm the timings with some CDS member k, thanks. :D

Tickets on sale @ $8, get them fastttttt before they run out!:D:D

SANNIE SO CUTE MUST BUY AND SUPPORT HIM ALTHOUGH IMMA BROKE. D:

+chases after everyone with a spork if you don't+.

Singing the best damn thing with Nat was fun. HAHAHAHA. Although junior told us not to sing and dance cos we looked damn spastic but that's audrey's second name YAY thank you +bows+. :D:D

& HAHAHAH!!

MORE PICK-UP LINES TODAY(!)

albeit they were abit sick. -.-

the juniors are so cute omigosh. :D:D.

Busy fishball!

2010-01-17T17:25:00.004+08:00

ZUUUU-EY & her 美腿 HAHAHAHA. Jo cut off oops o.o'' :X

BUT I KNOW YOU STILL LOVE ME RIGHT!!:D:D

Rock Paper Scissors Lizard Spork!

I am so going to memorise it hahahaa omigosh so funny!!(:

the normal Rock Paper Scissors usually leaves 75-80% of people tying due to limited outcome new fact wheee~ :D

Your love your love your love, is my drug~

(ke$ha is awesuuuuum!)

This week has been awesomeeeeeeeee(!!) to the fabulous maximum whoo!~

HAHAHAHA. +insert megasmiley faces here+ XD

Besides the 2-4 hours of sleep daily HAHAHA. :D

I want to climb. )))))):

I skipped Bouldermania for SLC ):

Just looked at the routes on facebook..Quite do-able, 10 people flashed all four, Novia & Eugenia did well HURRAY!~~ :D:D

AND YOU GET A SHIRT THAT SAYS "I AM A MANIAC."

Omigosh how cool is that D:!! Cooler than a fishball yo!! HAHAHAHA!! XD XD

Really will miss the seniors. :/

Training is twice a week! Plus occasionally Saturday climbing & now there's running every Monday, Wednesday and Fridays. ZOMG. I will run too!:D:D Sexy legs FTW!:D

I think I'm probably still going to make myself run every PE.. just no Cross Country, Third Period and Napfa ^^

I still need hotter legs AHAHAHA (quite impossible but a girl can dream YAY 8D)

Photobucket uploading pictures super slowly~

Shall go read my chinese book for the test after blogging while waiting.. haven't touched it in three months. o.o LOL. XD

Monday!

IPO! HAHAHAHA omigosh 10v12 has awesome dances.. Watched them juniors dance Sorryx2, Gee, Nobody for me zomggg haha awesumnez. :D

Stayed back to do alot of nonsense AHAHAHA. Super fun!

Tied waterbombs with Vishy at the canteen until late 9plus and listened to his stories about schooling in India. Joked and all super fun!(:

Helped Clar with Logistics outside PT, camwhored and all. :D

Dad came and he drove us to collect the keys to the chalet, passed to Vidhi (thank you woman!!:D), then sent Lim Xi home. Reached home around midnight I was totally owned by my exhaustion.

OG was super fun to be with, thank you for the fun laughter love joy peace and enthusiasm guys!!:D (L)!

Zomg @ the super wet floor ahahaha. :D

Young at heart. LMAO.

Millions and millions of water bombs.

Technically three thousand plus but HAHAHA. :D

Tuesday

IPO(II)!

Went to 11 to mug with Marcus in the early morning. Damn it. Chem R was totally -____- whattt? But thanks for the crash course on Preparation of Salts dude!:D

Took up 1/5 of the paper la.. and I mugged for it only on the morning itself.. -.-''

Went back to E.Hub where telematch took place. Break then Wet and Dirty games took place.

Change of venues left me hanging for a while D:

Thank you OG for being so patient and getting more and more enthu as the day progressed! You guys became much hyper and that made me so proud:D

Went for Rock after IPO.

Did routes, we're leading this week. I am going to make myself fall. I am I am I am. ): Terrified but I know I'll get used to it! I will own leadclimbing because that dumb thing costed me my ranking during the last comp we had DDD<

AUDREY JIAYOUS!:D:D

Reached home at 11plus, after rock dinner XD.

Wednesday

Stoned in 10v12 during Amazing Race while waiting for the teams to come up.

THE JUNIORS ARE WAY GOOD AT PICK-UP LINES.

I was so amused.

^^.

the one who created the proposing thing is damn cute(!) heh. :D

Hello 10v12, cheer up everyoneeee~!:D
We had three whole days' worth of fun together so it doesn't matter whether we won or lost, because we still had our share of fun!
We enjoyed every second you guys had with us and a major big THANK YOU!(L) for running the extra mile and thinking of cheers for the competition online. :D
We're proud of all of you (!) and hope you guys had as much fun as we did :D
THANK YOU 10V12!(L)
:D

Went for Dinner with PSLs and the juniors at Thaipan. Played I Never and I felt so proud because they got themselves talking from the moment they left school!:D Class Bonding FTW! Hehzx ^^!

In addition, I saw those awesum dancers dancing to Sorry Sorry and Taeyang's Wedding Dress outside the PT after IPO.

It made me day.

Thursday

was fun. :D

Jiayan & I were the only ones with the same personality in the whole cohort HAHAHA super uber cool ^^.

Played games and all, was real tired throughout the day cos I've been sleeping for max 4h the past days. :/

Went for dinner with 12, searched for the classy mask and it's freaking chio to the max hahaha!!:D:D I have become anti-subway for some very unexplainable reason.

Stopover at the airport while on the way home, wanted to sit the skytrain because I haven't sat it for a real long time but didn't know if T3 had skytrains. I think so:/

Haha so noob. :/

I miss the airport and its smell. o.o

I seriously have a freak obsession with the airport.

Reached home at 9, printed lyrics and did miscellaneous stuff till 10. Conference-called Sher & Clar Clar & Sher about Bash Nite and they sent me the picture of their dresses!:D Heh pretty ^^!

They eventually convinced me to wear my christmas dress the next day. D:

Friday-Saturday

SLC was totally funfunfun!! Murder game and ancient artifacts game (POLICE STATIONS FTW!!:D:D) was totally epic fun hahaha. :D

Bash Nite was funnn!:D

With the mask and all hahahaha great job on the performance guys!!(L)!

I totally declare my kor as the most fashionable guy that I've ever known.

Come on manzx D:

He freaking pulled off the suspenders thing without looking dorky. Wore a vest with his tie tucked in. & on top of it he own a freaking Zara Men racerbike leather jacket OHHOTDAMN. How freaking cool is that. I want a racerbike jacket kthanksbye.

Slept at 4am on Friday, crashed the guys' bunk till 2am hahaha. :D

We wanted to order Milo from Macs.. LOLOL midnight order from Macs for 20 Milo..

Bridge is super fun teehee. :D

Woke up at 7am+ on Saturday and went down to bathe.. Breakfast at 9am, broke camp at 11.30.

I am now on the search for places selling friendship bands!

anyone who knows where I can purchase them from please text me thankyou!(L) :D

went to grab some sushi and a slurpee form 711 (haven't had it in eons man O:).

read FML while having lunch then went to nap.

Eric was supposed to call me about Rock dinner.. Slept till 5.30+. He called a few minutes after that haha so timely. :D

But decided not to go cos my voice was turning sexy and I was super exhausted andand because Seoul Garden costs 25bucks a meal. Super ripoff DD<

Felt super bad for psehing the rest la.. ))x

Did InV!gorate stuff till 2am.

Good Job guys!!:D:D

Sunday

stayed home and continued doing InV!gorate stuff. talked to Clar on the phone she has an obsession with ants HAHAHA~ XD XD. YAYYYY:D

ohoh, dad bought like 7 packets of Royce chocolate home.

2 packets of Chocolate and Green Tea Mochi omigosh the Chocolate one is heavenly. O.O

on a sidenote, I heard Baby对不起 in English. o.o''

& the Yo VJC cheer in Chinese. HAHAHAA super awesum!

Yo 维初!!

HAHAHAHA. :D

Fact of the week:

AUDREY TOTALLY RHYMES WITH SEXY OKAY HAHAHA DON'T DENY IT!! LMAO. XD

Barrage is pretty ^^

InV!gorate's today~ JIAYOUS EVERYONE!!:D:D

2010-01-14T23:25:00.004+08:00

honestly.

it's draining trying to forgive, and believing that you care.

it's more hurtful thinking about the fact that I even have to try to make myself believe that you care.

I wanted to tell you so much more, but gave up. What's the use?.

You make me feel so inferior sometimes, but I hang on knowing that I promised I'll be there for you. You say we're close, but I don't feel that way. I feel so insignificant sometimes knowing that it's not me who can influence your decisions.

2 years, you said I've changed but you seem so.. unfamiliar to me.

I honestly don't know, and maybe I don't want to, know how much I actually mean to you.

You made me sad today, but I couldn't do anything because I promised myself that I'll stop hurting you.

My head hurts as I type this I've been sleeping for less than 4hours a day, God.

But I've cleared my mind up. I don't want to think about it anymore although I probably will but that's not going to stop me from being happy HAHAHAHAHAH. Everyday may not be good but there's always something good in everyday.

:D!!

BASH NIGHT TMR YAY YAY!!:D:D

IPO's over, pictures to come!!:D

10V12 YOU GUYS WRE AWEEEEEEESOME!(L) thank you for being such sweet and cute juniors, smile alrighties we're all super proud of you guys!!:D +MEGAHUG!!+ XD XD

InV!gorate up next!:D

2010-01-11T00:08:00.001+08:00

What the hell I just realised school starts today.

2010-01-09T23:46:00.005+08:00

"There is a guy who is obsessed with Harry Potter in my grade. He decided that he would tattoo the Dark Mark on his arm. So today when my teacher announced a pop quiz he pulled back his sleeve to reveal the dark mark and said, "Master is calling." He then left the room and then did not return for the rest of the period."

Hello love, SMILE. :D

Today was boo. ):

I'm beginning to think that I have given up on telling people that they're the ones at fault so I'm just taking all the shit in and hope that they change. Which is pretty much impossible. How?

My mind is just.. heh I don't understand myself sometimes. Super confused. It's just like 2 years ago again. ):

好累，真的好累。

等了好久，也不知道怎么开口说。

I think I'm really going to depend on myself and no one else from now onwards, for real.

It's okay, everything will be okay :D!

+SELF-HUGS+ :D.

Why don't I just tell you rightright!!:D:D

Okay problem solved bye my three week long dilemma ends here. AHAHAHA.

"You know what’s really amazing about a first love? It’s that when you find it, you’re still too young to know the feeling of a broken heart. You’re still too young that you have yet to build those walls that you’ll probably eventually learn to build someday. And I think that makes all the difference… Because that’s innocence right there. It’s that innocence that made you just fall freely into something as unknown as love. You give your heart to someone else for the very first time, that you leave nothing for yourself. You give the whole of it, because you haven’t lent it, or given a portion of it to anyone else before him or her. And it’s amazing and crazy that it’s also kind of stupid, but you couldn’t care less, right? And when it ends, it doesn’t really end, because what sets apart your first love from all the rest is that for once, you gave your all. And because you did, you can never really get it back the way it was, the way your heart was, when you first gave it away. I guess that’s why they say it never dies, you know? Because a piece of you just stays with your first love forever—whether or not he or she still cares."

I flipped when I read the above. Read through it the second third fourth asdfjkl time and still, it's really sweet. (:

okay picture spam because they were the things that cheered me up today!!^_^

This picture's so pretty ^_^

I love the pinkness the sunset brings.

DID YOU PEOPLE READ TAYLOR MOMSEN'S INTERVIEW ON FEB'S EDITION OF SEVENTEEN.

She's such a dear with her mix and match rocker black goth style and I'm pretty much hooked on her fashion style hehzx. :D

& ZOMG HAHAHAHA Emma Watson looks so lovely with her brother in the latest Burberry 2010 collection ^_^

That's what reading SG & US's Seventeen+ Girlfriend can do to you. :/

Apparently Alex Watson is the face to look out for in 2010.

My Chem paper's in 2 days HAHAHAHA.

Read: Double die. :D

Aud's status after this post:

On a lighter note, I want to go to the beach tomorrow/today!

Someone, anyone, please bring me along I'll bake you (nicer) cupcakes for your entire life!:D

(Acids will take me an hour to study for. HAHA.)

1:15pm. 8D

I'm going out today HAHAHAHA screw you chemistry!

EVERYONE EVERYONE EVERYONE JIAYOUS GAMBATTEH FOR IPO TOMORROW WHOMG!~

(L)!!

Haha 70k THANK YOU!(:

2010-01-09T00:48:00.001+08:00

FISHBALL!

Hahaha someone impressively OMG told me that is what I am. After tons of you guys calling me Ball or Fish or Fishcakes or FISHY!, that's the name imma gonna have to stick to.

Mhmm.

Fish+Ball. This is so absurdly delightful hahaha I feel so merry now~

Why didn't we all think of it before teehee! I was hyperventilating on the MSN screen a few hours ago hahaha yay!

我是个鱼圆！

I am not deprived of spastic stuff. PFTTT. xp!

This week has been awesumtastic!

Short Notice: Someone please tell Audrey to mug for her paper.

Monday

Went to school for PT, I ran 2km HAHA YAY YAY omg haven't ran in so long it actually felt good I actually felt accomplished and yes I saw stars and was pale and all that. As usual. :/

Went for InV! meeting in the middle of PT at 10.

Then to Macs to lunch with the rest of the PSLs after the meeting and played I Never! It's much better than T&D yupp!:D Although OG's I Never was the juiciest like zomgggg have you watched porn/fantasized about a stranger/frenched someone and stuff. HAHAHA. :D

Went to Giant to check the price of the foodstuff for the hampers then went home and met Ziqin on the bus and HE STILL REMEMBERS THAT I HATE BALLOONS OMG. X___X. YAY FILL IN THE BLANKS EXTERMINATOR HAHAHA.

Ohoh!

Then then I came home and made myself start on Chemistry after much procrastination and decided that it sucks to be studying Chemistry during the holidays so I took my awesometastic hair straightener and decided to straighten my fringe and messed with it for 1h+. HAHAHA.

then I SMSed for another 1h and by then it was already 12 and decided that Chemistry really officially sucks so I left my ninhydrin textbook alone and went to sleep.

yay.

Tuesday

Woke up late for meeting, reached school an hour late. :/

Left halfway through the meeting to purchase the hampers from Giant then went for Rock at 4. Left my climbing bag in the trolley at parkway & only realised it when I was at Douby Ghaut. Had to meet Shawn at Eunos to claim my bag from him then MRTed all the way to Farrer Park. Left Asia earlier than usual with a ): because my strength deproved alot after not climbing for 5 freaking weeks (I barely scraped through my first pull-up set)): ) but at least I completed a route. :/

LFS's in 3 weeks. I am scared. ): We will be leading after next week & I'm really really afraid and stuff I don't even want to think about the high walling underhang that I can barely scrap through even when I'm not leading. I DO NOT LIKE LEADING. )))): (triple super sad scared unsmiley faces.)

BUT.

I will be in Rock for 4 years. I cannot allow myself to continue being afraid of leading just because of the God-knows-how-freaking-far drop (although it really scares the hell outta me :/)

I need to improve on my strength & technique, and I need to grow taller leh :/. How?

second year already.. Nope don't regret what I've done in my first year at Rock. :D

I think one of the happiest days of last year had been when coach said that I had improved alot yup ((:

Must train hard okie Aud (:

New Year's Resolution: Focus more on Rock & still late late till seniors go home (ie. 10pm+)!:D

Wednesday

Went to the Dentist, then ate Japanese food and shopped around Raffles Place with Mummy!!:D

Went back to school for First Aid Course, then after much persuasion by Brysan, decided to go LAN to play L4D. :/

Was supposed to go for OG outing with Lim Xi but was too lazy to.

Hence Brysan, Lim Xi, Ramesh and I went LAN at Katong LOLOL first time and they tricked me that I had to undergo an injection before I could play -.- Fell for it.. thinking about it makes me feel so silly lol -.-

Played L4D2 HAHAHA I was like

Me: I do not want to go into LAN shops that are dark and scary and everything because someone told me that if you play against an ahlian and you win her then she will call her boyfriend to bash you up!!
Them: All LAN shops are dark. And you have three guys with you anyway.

-.- Lol.

Brysan probably lost his voice or sthg after that right, heh. -.-

Then we walked to my Shaved Ice Cream store for me to satisfy my long-term SIC craving haha!!:D then walked to the Banmian store to eat. Bus-ed home after that.

Thursday

Woke up at 8am to study for Chemistry.. and ended up FBing until 10 wtszx LOL. -.-

Chionged through three sets of notes then left the house.

Met Clar, Sher & Chee late (I'm SUPER SUPER SORRY!!DDD:). Passed Chee his booklet then left with Clar & Sher to Marina!:D

SHER GOT ME A KINDER EGG YAY YAY SUPERRRRRPOWER!!

Kinder Eggs are the most awesome chocolates on Planet Earth uh-huh!!:D:D

Met up with the rest at GV then went to eat at Pizzahut. Played I Never!(:

Watched Sherlock Holmes then went home.

Made a shop at Tampines1's Topman before heading home. I was super super super pissed off after walking out of the shop although I kind of expected it.

Then this .. whatever dude came up to me and asked me if I knew where Sengkang was and as I tried locating it for him on the MRT map he asked me if I wanted a flyers job and I just walked away. -.-

Annoyingness.

I swear I was really pissed off at Topman that I swore like five gazibillion times in my head as I walked home. :/

Friday

I AM EXEMPTED FROM NAFPA HAHAHAHA TAKE THAT YOZX.

Near syncopal after running. go google that up or sthg heh.

But it still mean I'll have to run during PE and have starry vision after the run and be excused from the activity afterwards for a while before I can get a clearer vision and not turn pale and.. whatever happened this year during PE lessons. :/

went to cut my fringe LOLOL an hour of straightening worked then went to KK.

AHS after the follow-up TRIPLE BACKFLIP YAY!!8DD

Omigosh I was so elated hahaha!!:D:D

Watched practically all the UG performances and DANCE!

Omigosh you guys were awesometastic (best dance I've ever seen these 3+ years!!) even Dr Boon was like "Good job, good job."

HAHAHAH!! YAY YAY YAYYYY!!:D

We cheered like kukutards during the second showcase yay!!:D

Saw so many familiar faces I was so happy!!:D:D

Updates and all from people I see regularly and not so regularly and OMIGOSH I'M REALLY GLAD I WENT BACK TO AHS TODAY!!((:

It made me so happy hahaha !aieeee :D:D

Thank you everyone who said hi, you guys made my day hahaha!:D:D

& I'm really sorry for PS-ing you guys and evaporating halfway! :/ New faces come up and say hi and I got excited and happy and stuff I end up talking to them and forget about who I was talking to at first ))x Super sorry! Had to leave to meet people and stuff as well heh YAY I GOT MY PINK BOX BACK LOLOL!! Thank you Fishy hun your SMSes are funny haha:D

Went to buy more contacts after that ^^

Has been a fulfilling week so far!:D

Going to 313 tmr to get my New year's clothes at F21!!

I AM GOING GOSSIP GIRL UPPER EAST SIDE GLAM FOR CNY THIS YEAR BABYYY!8DD

Someone buy me a leather jacket (River Island/Topshop!xp) & I'll bake you cupcakes for your entire life. :D

Okay hahaha this dress was like my christmas one except that it's white hahaha but Taylor Momsen looks so gorgeous here!(:

Tomorrow/Today then choose ba, can't wait F21~ ^^

But the dressing room queues are freaking freaking long yuuuuuuck.

Wanted to go to the National Museum's Exhibitions with Mei on Sunday, but I doubt that's possible judging by the rate I'm revising Chemistry. (read: die.)

anyway okay audrey is happy although blerghblerghbooyoublerghboomzxhahatoot.

(read again: you are on her mind and it's so annoying because ..nevermind. :/)

I fell asleep listening to my touch and thinking about you just yesterday night. I don't know why it's troubling me so much; I really don't. I'm just so annoyed by it. :/ And I hate being annoyed with anyone for what seems like an endless period of time but that's just because it's you. I don't even know if I should tell you what I really feel because our conversations are usually one way at this point of time and it's so dysfunctional it makes me want to end it all but then I thought of him and how much it'll hurt and then I went to sleep and told myself that I should just forget about it because I don't want to hurt you but I just know you're going to do it again so what's with the next time? I really don't know. Heh. :/

Nevermind I guess.. just let it drag on.. Heh.

I'm still happy LOLOL.

加油 for O lvl Chinese results/results on Monday!!:D Gambatteh people (L)!

Best Braces Colour?

2010-01-06T00:27:00.003+08:00

“Strength of character means the ability to overcome resentment against others, to hide hurt feelings, and to forgive quickly."

2010-01-03T13:11:00.008+08:00

Oh oh only for you, oh oh only for you.

I'm so hopefully in love with this song doesn't it just make you swoon~

AHAHAHA. :D

went to the marina barrage yesterday. the view there is awesuuuum. :D! people flying kites and having picnics and getting tans and all, I need to be blacker!:D fresh air, sea sand surf sun loveeeee ^__^.

then went for the MAAD flea market at Red Dot. teeeeh products there are super cool heh but overpriced cos they're handmade. they was the superZOMGcool mini whistle keychain thing made of wood with your personality. I wanted to buy the superhuman one to hang on my phone cos mr small's kind irritating right naow nuuuu~ DDD:

went ice skating on the first day of new year, fell while I attempted to do some stop(& stare) turn backwards stunt HAHAHA awesumuuum. 8D

I am too lazy to get my ass on a chair and watch avatar for a freaking whoppin' 2hr 40min like omgwtszx?!

but these few days has made me come to a conclusion!8D

You don't need to go shopping, kbox, shoping, kbox, or shopping (have I mentioned kbox AHAHAHA:D) to have fun in Singapore!

I feel much much revived and contented knowing I spent my holidays doing such stuff. heeeeh. :D as well as that symphonic musical at the esplanade HAHAHAA.

hence I have created a list of places I would want to spend this year going to:

+pauses to listen to evacuate the dance floor+

Places

1. Henderson's Wavvvves (V for Xtra! wavvvvvy effect. Oh God. It looks so annoying now. :/)

2. Haji Lane

3. Singapore Flyer

4. Mint Museum of Singapore

5. THAT Treasures of Ancient Egypt Exhibition at the National Museum

Haji lane's a disappointment but I still wnna go!:D

The last three places are quite pricey heh hence it'll be better to go with friends cos there are student prices ^_^.

Who wants to sneak into an NC16 theatre with me before my birthday. I'll love you mucho loads (L). There're no NC 16 movies this Thursday!O:

I will eat shaved ice cream and go to aston's before this holidays end. :D

Hopefully tomorrow hahaha. (: Not As's but the ice cream yuuuup. After InV! dry run heh heh yayy~ :D

Oh & someone please kill me. :/

I can't go for CCA showcase since it clashes with my hospital appointment. ))):

sighs triple massive biggie sigh. )):

I had a weird dream yesterday night.

It ended with this:

Me: +Screams his name out loud+. (In between us was this metal grill barrier thing and I was on the second floor screaming down)
He: Huh. What are you doing.
Me: (apparently in my dream it was supposed to have been romantic.) Waiting for you. ~

It sounds so silly now.

& then I woke up and felt freak guilty and this wave of sadness just draped inside over me.

Then I told myself it was over and went back to sleep. Just that I couldn't sleep much after that, lol. Then this morning after I finally woke up I went online to Facebook and realised why I dreamt of him (because I have never dreamt of him before. & thought that this must've been my heart telling me something about my feelings.)

Because. Because. DDD:

The other day I was bored and decided to check out my Facebook friends. Because I realised that some funny weird people tricked me into adding them because they have the same names and surnames of people I know so it was until I saw their pictures that I realsied I got tricked by pedophiles and the people whom I had added weren't my friends but old cheekos instead!!

OMFG.

imagine the nerves!

(okay not old cheekos actually but you get the point).

Then.

I saw friend 1. Who used to be my enemy when I was a Primary 1 kid. HEEEEEH.

& then I realised that SHE WAS MUCH~~MUCHMUCH~~ CHIOER THAN ME. (I have decided to cancel the extra muches because that'll make it seem that either

1. She is much chioer than me or

2. I am freaking ugly like frankenstein's twin sister. Either of which I do not approve of.

WTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTSZX.

ASDFJKL HEH HEH I sound like a petty bitch right now but how pretty could a Primary 1 girl have been anyway rightrightttt.

HAHAHAHAHAH.

I bitched to two people about this already and all they did was laugh at me cans!!DD<

HAHAHAHA.

ANYWAY.

then realisation #2 of the century.

SHE HAS A BOYFRIEND.

Massive OMFG GLOOPER.

Especially if she's from an all girls' but nowadays it's those from single-sec schools that typically find steads right. I'm not being stereotypical or something but that's what happens to those around me so shut up if you disagree with this just because you haven't experienced it. Seriously, I don't care.

& her boyfriend had the same name as him.

So realisation of the century #3,

I dreamt of him because of Facebook.

Not because I actually unknowingly still feel whatever I thought I had felt for him right after I woke up, but because of that dreaded site. FACEBOOK.

FML.

Oh after going to the Marina Barrage it has dawned on me that Dad used to own a SLR.. Packed away in the storeroom.

Time for spring cleaning teeeheee :D

If I eventually find it there're be mucho spams of pictures yay!~ 8D

& I realised that I am not some freakish psychopath loser to the max!:D

because there are groups on facebook with people of my behaviour.

Such as:

1. I wait & wait & feel happy when YOU finally start a convo with me online.

2. I Was On Facebook The First Day Of 2010.

3. If a guy replies to yr text msgs while playing dota, he really loves you.

- This is not true. HAHAHAHAHA. Because someone told me he did that to me once. HAHAHAHA.

4. You're online and I want to talk to you, BUT im not saying hi first.

- (this happens all the time.)

5. I ALWAYS FORGET WHAT THE TEXT MESSAGE SAYS WHEN IM REPLYING TO IT!!

- Sannie once laughed at me for this.

6. Stop Changing Your Relationship Status, No One Cares If Its Complicated.

- Yes, Seriously.

7. Sock Eating Pirates :P

8. I added myself on msn, don't ask why.

Happy Deepavali

2009-12-31T19:26:00.003+08:00

HAPPY DEEEEEEEEPAVALI EVERYONE!:D

Okies my Deepavali resolutions:

I'm going to grow taller.
I'm going to look on the sunnier side of the sunflower field.
I'm going to be happpppppy.

^_____^

My stargirls!

Amanda, Abigail thank you BFFs for the love.

Superboys ;D

Sannie, although you're such a jerk to me and I'm such a bitch to you sometimes, HAHAHA. Sorry I can't make it for Kbox today :/.

Ernest Lim, I don't want to be mad at you anymore. (L)

End of Post, yay!8D

2009-12-30T00:03:00.007+08:00

Being happy doesn't mean that everything's perfect; it just means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.

Omigosh!

YAY YAY YAYYY~ Today was funfunfun!!:D

Heh heh I love mass dancing to the freaking max it's so fun!:D TRIBAL DANCE TRIBAL DANCE +cool cool action, ME LIKE+ 8D

Okay I'm in a dress typing at 12.02am with my contacts still on and asdfjkl messages to be replied in my phone :/ I'm tired and I want to sleep after blogging but I have to bathe again and pack my bag for tmr and clothes and edit invigorate stuff and OMG I DON'T WANT TO PACK MY BAG AND CLOTHES FOR TMR :/ asdfjkl okay I don't want to think about it, much less think about why I'm blogging now ZOMG. DDDD:

Waking up at 7am tmr/technically today OMGGG )):

Not to forget to mention waking up to go for Sea Regatta (YAY YAY ZOMGGG triplefiple love xox's baby! ♥)

SEA SURF SAND SUN TAN FUN BEACHY THINGY. ZOMGGG (((((:

I have a weird obsession with the Sun. o.o''

ANYWAY.

I am waking up at 7am tomorrow just to get shouted at for my manicured nails (oh plz no DD:) so fingers crossed :/

I was asdfjkl today. But I talked so freaking much to B it was overwhelming. because he kept abusing his awesometastic good friend. -.-

1. poke 2. poke 3. POKEEEE ATTACK -.-

then he slapped me and continued poking me (& did other devious stuff which I've forgotten because 1. I'm tired 2. I shouldn't waste my brainjuice over such an issue D: 3. I'VE LONG FORGIVEN AND FORGOTTEN. see HAH so nice a friend. :D) . and then there were invigorate discussions most of which consisted of chocolate trophies, wrapping hampers and the usual "uh where are we going to eat at I'm hungry." BECAUSE I WAS REALLY HUNGRY LIKE SIAO (for once). !phail XD

My hairband's hanging from my lappie. o.o LOL :D

OH MAN HAHAHA I've been very happy (overly happy/enthu/zihigh/spastic :/) lately.

8DD HAHAHAH YAY Happy Audreys rock whomg!^^

I think the most common word found in my christmas cards is spastic. o.o

HAHAHAHAHA XD XD :DD

so anyway we took the bus and went Banquet/Bubble tea/OCK during lunch today because we were supposed to discuss Inv(!) stuff but we ended up talking nonsense boo. XD

Shau/wn & Bryan gave Sher & I an inside look into a guy's mind.

I hereby conclue that

1. I should be grateful for the fact that I am not a male.

2. When people say that girls thinking is un-understandable, they are so totally wrong. The three of them all said that I was the one in the wrong for 40 layers

Bryan did a good impersonation of rejecting a call with alot of Fs. & that reminds me. Gaurav said one whole string of Fs today as well although it didn't break his record, LOL. Bryan made me swear today, his fault. :/

3. I will attempt to stop suaning people.

& it's difficult when you get suaned like kukunuts everyday hoookaye DDDx

Haiyoh, talking to both of them enlightened me. ):

Argued with Bryan like siaow, the rest said that we can start a talkshow 8D.

"HELLO, WELCOME TO THE AUDREY AND BRYAN SHOW.~"

(can take over Shan & Rozz, HAHAHAHA.)

But then on the way back they changed their mind and said I could fly solo cos I talk too much. -.-

Did alot of crap at Parkway, it was the highlight of my afternoon (besides tribal dance, lmso^^)

THANK YOU GUYS!:D

for making me laugh so much HAHAHAHA Brysan I won't forget your birthday again la alright promise :) & must remember what I told you when we were sitting outside the toilet talking!:D

Left before briefing and cheer. Chionged home to get my climbing shoes and to bathe. Went for the party afterwards(: Funfunfun zomgggg creative seniors teehee^_^

Came home and Claudia's quite amusing, LOL. o.o

Sannie you better make it on Thursday boo I don't want to spend the last day of 2009 with my chem/math ws.

Amirah has motivated me to study for my R paper on the last 3 days of the holidays. 8D

And everyone started mugging once holidays started, good luck audrey. o_____o..

"Aiyoh not A levels so who cares, whatever la." totally agreeeeee (cos I'm feeling lazy). ^^

It's 1.30 now I have 6hr to sleep then there's Regatta, Mass dance then Movie and OG dinner!:D

Sherlock Holmes I WANNA WANNA WATCH AVATAR!DDD:

Movie+Dinner today then movie+fireworks on thursday. :D yay yay me wnna watch pretty fireworks ^_^!

The first word everyone will speak on 2010 is Happy.

Happy New Year.

What a lovely way to start of the new year right!!:D

Happiness.

^____^

Time to bond with OG today. (:

ohoh!:D

THANK YOU CLAR AND SHER FOR THE FUNNY PHONECALL/INV! HELP/CRASHING OF OG TO DO MASS DANCE/ETCETC. JCO wouldn't be fun without both of you zomg man okay please deflate your already over-inflated egos !runs away screaming DDDD:

Okay random but HAHAHA Sannie Sannie!!:D 坦白 is another super nice song to listen/emo to!:D although I haven't emoed for quite long alr HAHAHA YAY~ :DD

stop changing your facebook status, no one cares if your relationship status is complicated.

2009-12-29T01:10:00.003+08:00

To the freaking population of guys who read this:

Top 10 things we girls do not tell you.

1. When we're not talking to you on MSN, we're actually waiting for you to talk to us (in a non-snobby way, we want to see if you still care enough to talk to us).

2. Of course, we do believe the crap we read in magazines.
3. We have mood swings. Get over it.

4. We will move mountains on our timetable if it means seeing you.

5. Don't brag about other girls liking you, it just makes us insecure.

6. Don't just say 'ok' when we say we don't want to talk about it.

7. We really do want you to stick up for us.

8. We over-analyze everything.

9. We like it when you are protective of us. It makes us feel special.

10. When we come back from a holiday and brag about how awesome it was, during the entire time there we were probably thinking about you. A lot.

This is for B, for whom I told him I'll post this up while walking back home with him today. It's been a while since I last had a good talk with you. ^^

I think feelings are treated too lightly nowadays. Love is thrown around, while people stop making good of their promises. Love isn't overrated. It's becoming underrated, because there's so few people who actually exemplify what love is. love is waking up to find your breakfast waffles nicely made by mummy who specially woke up early. love is calling someone to cheer her up when she's down. love is everything and anything nicely packaged into a big bright box entitled happiness. love is far from the mindless teasing people are well-versed in nowadays. it's the requiem for one's soul, it's the feeling you get when you look into the night sky and see pretty stars.

because life's what it has become, love's thrown around and everyone gets hurt.

which brings me to the point, what I told B today.

love, it's giving that other person the power to break your heart but trusting that they wouldn't.

thinking about it now, it does make the cut for a quote, because it's still so damn meaningful. okay I've totally overshot my word limit for this blogpost and I have to wake up at 7am (mass dance!^^) & go partying after that but it's still troubling me.

so what happens if your heart gets broken?

twice.

as much as it hurts I'll still be here for you, because that's what I promised. ^^

ain't got a care in the world, but got plenty of beer

2009-12-27T18:22:00.002+08:00

2009-12-20T01:22:00.008+08:00

I touched down at 6.05a.m.

I reached home at 6.45a.m.

I read the papers delivering news of our paddlers 6 gold medal sweep (although jiawei jie didn't play in this SEA games but PADDLERS YOU GUYS WERE AWESOMETASTIC(: ), did a victory dance then went to bathe at 7a.m.

I replied my 17 smses at 7.20a.m.

I slept till 11a.m.

Then groggily got up to call Sannie and talked on the phone for half an hour before deciding on impulse that we should go to S@313 together today.

It has come to realization that I disdainfully lack even the most meagre amount of emotional capacity at times, it's a wonder that I'm neurotic to the extremes. God, Audrey.

China was cool, with a negative seventeen degrees label attached. Bought a pair of boots, a Paul Frank shirt which absolutely just pissed Sannie off (poor monkey-who-isn't-blond), three Juicy Couture wallets, a Rock & Republic Victoria Beckham jeans and a pair of gold puma shoes. Designer wear for the win.

Ate fast food five times, went for massages at least thrice, did a mani, got my nails painted (it's black and hence matches with my christmas dress triple backflip YAYY!^^). Found out the reason for my blanking out. spent some obscene amount on medicine.

My sister loves me.

Example 1: Jie you are very short, HAHAHAHAHA.

Example 2: Jie you know there's so many more people prettier than you.

Example 3:

While watching MTV

Me: Wl that person so ugly can become artist!

Mei: At least she looks much better than you.

tyvm.

Oh and I was mistakenly acknowledged as the younger sister during the trip which made me super pissed off and has motivated me to jumprope 300 times a day.

We fabouuulouszx people worhzxz.

-Stalking interesting people. xp

-Crashing of many fashionwear stores

-Being pissed off because stores nowadays are too sexist.

-Being spastards at KFC and Macs.
-SANNIE MUST STAY HAPPY LIKE ME OKAY!:D you have such a nice cousin right right :D:D domokun says that audrey rocks. ^^

-Establishment of SS; * Singles Society
Because steading someone nowadays is too common that it's becoming overrated.

* (formerly known as SC, Singles Club but it reminds me too much of some Poetic Justice society I just had to rename it. -.-)

First Stop, Raffles City.

MRTed there. Sat at Macs while I koped his fries and drink and commented on passerbys clothings and how people's jeans were always so damn low it makes their buttline visible. triple gross, yuuuuck. Went to Topshop/men, River Island and some other stores I forgot, yay.

SA was having this super cute dress up event thingum so I totally had to drag sannie to help me take a picture of me with Mr. Darth Vadar twin.

There was a freaking hot leather biker jacket from Topshop. If it was a guy it would've been considered drop dead gorgeous.

& the androgynous River Island bag above is totally to die for.

;-;

Next stop, S@313!;D

Sannie was cheated. HAHAHAHAH.

because the only reason he went to 313 was to see the menswear at Forever 21. but the 313 outlet which consisted of 4 freaking storeys only sold female stuff. HAHAHAHA damn epic.

BUT OMG SHIFT11111 THE FOREVER 21 THERE IS ABSOLUTE LOVE ;--------------; .

the dresses are more worthy than drool worthy !dies ;-;

Cotton on Uniqlo F21 Hula & Co. Epicentre Zara Esprit Topshop MNG someone kill meeeeeee ^^.

NUM guys are so not hot (popular to contrary belief). Booooo.

Went to KFC cos he was hungry (again), HAHAHAHA. KFC cheats people la plz. -.-

Talked for another one half hour then we were supposed to go to his house to say hi to Isaac Kor and bloghop/fb/stalk people and do whatever nonsense but we ended up going tampines instead. I wonder why uh.

Third Stop! Tampines 1, Tampines Mall, Century Sq. ;D

Walked out of Tampines MRT and saw person-I-thought-looked-familiar -.-

Then realised that I saw him on FB before, super lol. -.- Smsed nest.

Person looks much better in real life, lol o.o.

We were standing arnd him and commenting about damn gay stuff. Not boyfriend material but legs damn nice please, HAHAHAHA scary thought XD.

Stalked until he disappeared with his gf like 15 min later into that Jap place. -.-

Sannie & Nest are lol.

N calls S Sannie and Sannie finds it gay.

S calls N Nest and Nest finds it gay.

guys.

-.-

Went to Open Plaza afterwards.

Instead of purchasing instant soft drinks, we bought a bottle of Peach Tea from the supermarket.

Instead of watching a movie, we watched people Para Para at the arcade.

HAHAHA super fun(:

His gay alarm went off so we went stalking another couple but this one not much action so we left. HAHAHAHA.

Went to the basement and finally(!) did something stupid. ^^

We stood at the octopus ball stall looking at the person make those balls and planned to clap after she completed her second batch. Clapped damn loud then ran to the next food store but we made those passerbys turn around stunned. ^^

He felt hungry (for the third time) so he bought those oily fattening gross makes-you-gain-five-gazibillion-kilograms-of-fats fried chicken swimming in greasy yellow oil and we sat at one corner to continue talking. :D

Then gf came along!

Stalked until we realised that gf wasn't meeting bf anymore. HAHAHAHA.

Quite smart leh. O:

Then went to the magazine stand and browsed through Jan's issue of Seventeen until I got scolded by the uncle. -.-

Aaron is a damn good stalker.

Keane concert tix going for $3o each, zomg buybuy!!O: O:

Busy week this week, I haven't gone for training for eons & need to do more christmas stuff tmrw!

Super exhausted, goodnight/morning world.

Grow tanner, jumprope 300 times a day, not be so moody, watch ohitorisama and hi my sweetheart! ^^

Aud has to wake up early to continue folding paper hearts tmrw morning. (:

Pre-Birthday Messages

2009-12-10T21:42:00.003+08:00

Pre-Birthday Messages for two of the awesome people in my life + goodbye messages ^^

I met my three favourite people yesterday!

it made me happy, as much as drinking a warm cup of steaming milo at night^^

this pre-birthday post is hence dedicated to two of them who light up my no-life life. :D

i'm sorry i won't be here to wish you on your birthdays ):

Queeeeeeeeeeeenie Loh Ling Yin!♥

Zomg it's been eons lightyears every single thing since I last like, iono. Bitched with you and all! Okay not exactly the last bitching therapy had been half a year ago or something I MISS YOU LIKE KUKU YOU TALL TALL PERSON (who always makes me strain my neck!) :D yno I carry your cards in my file in school so everytime I think of you I'll take them cards out and think of you even more!! :D:D heh!^^ remember the set of cards you gave me before I left for IP and a particular green card amongst them which I said I won't read until crap stuff happens this year, that'll be when I'll pull the card out and think of you so much that you'll make me smile once again?:D HAHAHAHAHA I kind of read the thing last year because I uh. couldn't wait. HAHAHAHAHA!! :X but ZOMG OKAYYE life without you is manageable but just without that sparkle booo )): I love you you awesome sexy honey gossip girl ANTM all american (now 8-days-loving) fanatic!:D

Our Disagreements, One Year On.

1. J-guy HOT/NOT.

J guy is still damn hot OMG he's really hot HAHAHAHAHA!!!:D:D:D (omigosh I feel like a stalker, lol. -.-)

2. YS HOT/NOT.

(change of mind, YS is not hot.) BOOOO he's not hot alr, omigosh HAHAHAHA I think I was blind. 8D

3. David Cook/David Archuleta

DAVID COOK FTW BABYYYY!!;D (I think Archuleta is selling much better than him though O:)

4. LOLL "forever on diet/forever eating."

5. Porn for guys is Ew/Normal -.-

(change of mind, porn for guys.. is normal now.) YAY same team heh!8D

6. Long hair nicer/ NO! Short hair!

(change of mind, I think Long hair is nicer now.)

7. Wants IP/doesn't.

HAHAHAHA!!

I have something to add!!:D HAHAHAH why didn't we think of it before~

8. Jennifer Anniston/Angelina Jolie

obviously Jennifer A. (still) HAHAHAHAHAHA!!

DO YOU REMEMBER THE MILO BUBBLE TEA PRAWN DANCE THAT I TAUGHT YOU AND YY DURING LANTERN FESTIVAL!!:D:D:D HEH HEH ^^

Thank you for all the times we shared hints for upcoming tests even though the teachers threatened us and stuff. I think we shared EOYS/MYES exam questions till we had hints for every subject and like, half the math paper came out LOL. -.-'' We're like totally different when it comes to schoolwork. :D I remember you'll always be calling me just a few days before the exam to ask about stuff and you'll be freaking out over the phone but being the Queenie that you are you'll always score freaking damn high you're a one-hit wonder HAHAHAHAHA. I had fun ponning dance all the time to slack at Macs with you while we bitched about Sec2 life and gossiped the afternoon away when we were supposed to be studying. Your daily homework book is so colourful I want one for Christmas kthx. ^^ You always say that my blogposts are always written in a mystery code language you never seem to know what I'm talking about but I hope you understand this post XD Queenie has a fascination with Reese puffs and Vaseline!! We stayed back to watch the NCC cheer one day but I missed it because I was away doing some other stupid thing and I came back and nearly paid Ziqin five bucks to perform again. -.- YOU AND YY MADE ME RUN DOWN THE AHS HILL ALONE SCREAMING MY HEAD OFF WHILE JB AND SOME OTHER CHINESE TEACHER WERE THERE O___Oing ME. Zomg I'm reading that pile of notes stuff that you gave me & I'm tearing again, HAHAHAHA. THANK YOU for that Bio 7smses thing, those phonecalls you don't bother to get back to, and those superfun/awesome times we had tgt!!:D MANY MORE TO COME OKAY!!^^

"Audrey helped me with stupid cumulative graph and mini clues for 作文."- September 16th 2008.

"I finally got payback time! I flooded you with clues for Science bio test for the chapters on Sexual Reproduction and STDs. Despite your protests I shot hints out like zomg!"- 22nd September 2008.

UH. I know why our grades have been dropping.

Because we're not there to give each other clues for tests/exams anymore.

-.-

I MISS YOU TO THE MAX GIRL!!

I know you'll be even busier next year and all but know that I'll be there for you as you have been here for me this year!((: !MEGAHUGGGGGG <3

Boo I think whenever we see each other down we'll automatically be damn sad as well )): THEREFORE, LET'S ALL BE HAPPY AND YELLOW AND GAY FROM NOW ONWARDS KAY! yayyyyy!~ (you're alr as gay as yellow is so this just serves as a reminder to smile:D:D)

It's hard finding someone on the same wavelength as you, who loves gossiping, who shares the same innerthoughts as you, who's totally into 987 since the first day you meet, who's always there for you no matter how physically far apart you are, who is willing to participate with you in some super spastic antic, who will freak out and go damn high because we're both free on fridays (aka ponning cca session) just to gossip at macs, who will be willing to share test hints with you like tissue paper ^^, who knows what you're talking about when you're commenting on juicy couture and all the damn angmoh stuff!:D:D

Thank you for being the most awesome friend Nieloh,

Happy Fifteeth (let's try acting our age from today on k 8D)

I love you till the ends of the world!:D

+ HELLO NAT NAT I HOPE YOU BECOME A PILOT ONE DAY (you are so cute HAHAHAHAH)!

Second person ^^

To my Superboy/BFF of 3weeks plus (it's a pretty blue, you like!:D) :

hahaha after all that we've gone through the past two years, I never thought that we'll actually stay in contact and be as close as how we are now. my impression of you changed alot hahaha.

stuff had to happen before we could finally become friends, then best friends, but i'm just as glad as you are that you didn't give up on me. sometimes feelings can't be properly felt through a phone conversation, nor can technology do much justice to express words that can't really be expressed, but I hope that you know how much you mean to me. you're always worried that you don't give enough to this friendship, that you've hurt me for whatever reasons you believe in, that I'm mad at you and never want to talk to you ever again. now that you're reading this (I knw you are because you are one of those people on my must-ignore-or-else-they'll-call-me-to-blog-again people list HAHAHAH no la jk :D), I hope you know that the never talking to you thing will never happen even if you zap me off to mars and we have zilch contact because it sucks not being able to hear your voice over the phone before I sleep during the holidays telling me goodnight boo. you're always the stronger one among us two, and you never make me feel bad about those hurtful and immature things I've done. you always get bullied by me but you don't mind because you say that you're thick-skinned. you remember alot of things about me whereas my memorybank of you is only half of yours maximum. you make me smile whenever you reassure me over the phone about stuff because that's what you've always been doing. you never ever come to me when you need help with something & you're really selfish because of that. you always give in to me whenever we argue even though it isn't your fault most of the time (our only first and major fight was in october this year O:), you always say sorry even though you know you're not the one at fault, you care too much about my feelings that you end up neglecting yours. thank you for never failing to call me as soon as you get up in the morning just to check if i'm better whenever i'm sick, always lending me your shoulder to cry on even when you're busy, forcing me to hang up the phone and go to sleep once you know that i'm tired, believing in me so damn much, always assuring me about stuff and allowing me to sleep tight, being sore with me because you find it ironic that i scold you whenever you use expletives over the phone whereas i've used FML on my blog umpteen times, your ability to always know if there's smth troubling me, always asking me to grow taller so you can have a better shoulder to lean on and a less skinny one at that, always being the first to open up even though ynno you might get hurt, for always putting me as your top few priorities even when i didn't, for keeping all my notes in your wallet, for always reminding me to get enough rest and not to wait for your call, for all the times you've turned my upside-down smile into a bright yellow sunshine. for always being there for me, for making me trust you so much. For always catching me whenever I fall that I don't have to worry about falling anymore.

for just being the you who's so thoughtful and spastic at the same time it's a wonder.

Happy Sixteenth, Nest.

Thanks for being the superboy you always are.

I love you (as a friend stop rolling your eyes at me I am not a paranoid freak you horrible person HAHAHAHA), always. ^^
You make me :D.

On a side note,

I'll reallyreally miss all your latenight random calls this one half week o.o. no one to say goodnight to pftttttt, no one to play Wedding Dress for me asdfjkl BIIIISH. ): Please remember to eat your dinner or else your gastric acts up again and I'll really hate you for making me worry.

Last farewell!8D

BYEBYE SANNIE I WILL MISS YOU ALTHOUGH YOU ARE SUCH A JERK.

I will miss your annoying msn conversations, I will miss you calling me a bitch 24/7, I will miss you doing facebook quizzes and making me wait for you at Simei, but best of all, I KNOW YOU WILL MISS ME MORE.

(: BYE BYE SANNIE, I know you will miss me.

Bye Fishy I forgot to reply your message but yes I agree the green specs dude sucks ttm and should've been kicked out in S.I. I am fatter than you and shorter, which makes me obese, I hope that cheers you up love!(: okay the rest should just be replied by sms.. -.- I love you fishy, and even if the whole world turns their back at you I'll be there for you hun! (although I'm always damn lazy to reply my messages.) hearts all over the whole tonight, I LOVE YOU LOVE, and the best proof of love is now Mochi. (:

(your favourite colour! I hope it cheers you up a lil' hehzx! ^^)

Bye ClarSherSherClar!

You egocentric people I will miss you guys alot, happy?XD HAHAHAHA!!:D

(you guys' favourite colours are pinned up on a post-it on my desk so that I can see it everyday heh!^^)

SAMMIEKINZX GOODLUCK FOR YOUR CONCERT!!:D:D

I hope JSO goes well! Naow to bathe and finish replying all my 3day long overdued smses before I leave for the airport.. o.o

Bye everyone else, I hope it snows hehzxzx. ^^

2009-12-05T13:20:00.003+08:00

OMGOMGOMG.

i have so many stuff to do it's horrifying but on top of it all i got distracted facebooking and i just wanted to say while i am hyperventilating with heartslaughterjoypeace

MY SANNIE IS SO SO SO CUTEEEEEEEE!!^^

OHEMGEEE MEGACUTE HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

!aiee so freaking freaking cute i fell off my seat!!^^

oh my god so gay.

okay. back to the world of work.

061209

Pris made me do a quiz because she loves me. ^^

(I'm just trying to making her fill happy and inject some colour into my non-existent life, from what she apparently said. ^^)

1. What do you do if you are in the bathroom with a beetle flying around?
I LAUGH THEN CALL THE FLYING-INSECTS CONTROLLER.

2. What do you do if you hear a song you like playing on the radio when you are all alone in the room?
I headbang to james blunt and sleep with FOB on my stereo uh huh!!8D

3. You want to speak to your crush badly. What is your pick up line?

OMG HAHAHAHA pick up lines time (!!) "Do you have a map, I just got lost in your eyes." or or!

"Band aid plz, I hurt my knees falling for you."

HAHAHAHAHA, "People say Disneyland is the best place on earth, obviously they've never been in your arms."

Okay. yno what. I just tell him all three above then hide under a rock and die of laughter.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

4. What do you do if all your friends hate a particular band that you love?
iono, don't care.

5. What do you do when you trip and fall in front of many people?
I imagine they're all coconuts wearing their underwear upside down!!:D:D

6. You forgot to do your multiple-choice question homework and your class starts in 5 minutes. What do you do?
COPY LA, SHEESH.

7. You have bad breath and someone speaks to you. How do you react?
dao then come back and pretend that you didn't know the person had been talking to you. 8D

8. You just finished gym and after a shower, you drop your underpants on the wet floor. What do you do?
pick my undies up and stand in the shower blowing it till it dries. ^^

9. What do you do if a personality quiz says that you have a lousy personality as your result?
i'll say the personality quiz has an even worser personality instead by telling me the truth, SHEESH. DDDD:

10. Your friend gave you the worst gift you have ever received and asks: Do you like it? How do you react?
I'll just shut up and say thanks because I guess it's what people have been doing to me as well because I svck @ present-picking:X

11.(Continued from question 10) What are you really thinking secretly inside?
HAHAHAHAHA. how much can I sell it for so that I can buy a new cellphone.

12. A hot guy/girl keeps looking at you while you are on the bus. What are you secretly thinking inside?
Sit next to him, look into his eyes. Point to him and scream "PERVERT!" with manymany exclamation marks then run down the bus laughing.

8DDD

Okay I'm done with this quiz. HELLO PRIS I HOPE I MADE YOUR SHEEPY DAY!

AUDREY JUNIOR LOVES YOU!! HAHAHAHAHA. XD

2009-12-04T02:40:00.001+08:00

It's 2:46am it's apparently quite late (to me as of 021209) because I have stuff on tmr & I want to sleep. snort, piggy ):

alot of things to do imma push them all till saturday and sunday.

i'm happy as a nut!

i finally finished christmas shopping+birthday shopping plusplus this is the first time i have ever felt so accomplished after shopping for a guy. sheesh. cheat method heh whatever. 8D

scrimped and saved like kuku for the present then end up giving something else because something happened hahaha this seems confusing but i hope you'll like it ^^

this is the third week of aud's save-money-for-xmas/birthday-presents plan & i'm overjoyed. 8D

i can finally eat proper meals now.

HAHAHAHAHAH.

after these torturous 3 weeks of scrimping and being a loser miser, you kind of understand how much effort it takes to control your spendings just to save up for stuff be it for others or not. this christmas, aud will be a very happy and contented kid because she bought & saved up for her presents with her own sweat & blood. 8D so melodramatic but imma happyhappy ((:

i checked my piggy bank today- $31 bucks.

i've spent alotalotalotx101 this holidays. i think mummy was quite mad at me ):. so from now on i shall continue saving up. ^^

dresses+chalet+misc+xmas/birthday presents= $60+$30+$50+$70= $200+

all spent within 3 weeks, no wonder so broke!

O________________X''

this week has been busybusy as usual. thank God we're going china, i need a breather ^^. a busy life is good though, heh.(: just that you miss the chance to queue for starbucks java chocolate chip frap like what i've been doing for the past 2 years every december whenever you donate to TSA.

kind of realised i haven't been talking to people i used to be close to much anym. can't really do much about it i guess, life just goes on. =D

my throat hurts bad. & i'm going kbox today. God.

dental at 11.45, bus to parkway to change specs and for lunch, mrt to farrer for self training w/senior, mrt back to parkway to eat dinner then kbox w/rock.

went for meeting yesterday morning, parkway for lunch !yay ate carl's jnr for the first time whee albeit their prices are sky-high and overrated, and their fries and just disgustingly overfried. 8D went christmas shopping at tampines. walked from t1 to tm to cs then back to t1 because i was running late to meet amirah alr. went for rock after shopping then rock dinner.

zoomziggyzoomyzumzum.

proposal, snr jnr outing, class xmas party to settle.

okay everyone, ALLEHZ!8D

such a failed attempt to take picture of my pretty black and gold dress 'cos we ended up camwhoring. =D

Today, I woke up and looked in the mirror and noticed that my face was covered in glitter. I asked my wife about it and she said she put it on me while I was sleeping so that I would sparkle like Edward from Twilight when I'm in the sunlight. FML

Omfg why are people so retarded nowadays. i'll go to sleep after reading FMLs. hah.

2009-12-02T17:00:00.003+08:00

We are afraid of caring too much, for fear that the other person doesn't care at all.

It's people who've been hurt that have issues with trust and end up hurting those who love them in return.

don't play with feelings, don't lie to yourself. you'll end up getting fooled in the end.

realised that as time passes I become more aware of things.

& my timespan of emoing decreases.

but shove audrey in bed at 3am with jay chou songs playing on shuffle you'll get hell. the other day heard 白色风车 then started feeling damn sad. -.-

don't know, don't care. once you accept that life sucks you'll feel happier.

HAHAHAHAH.

2009-11-28T19:42:00.002+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE I NEED HELP.

Anyone knows anyone who appealed successfully and got into Anglican High?

Please SMS me/MSN me or fly to my house using a spaceship YAY~!

Mei is putting AHS as her first choice, but she got 241 & last year's cut-off had been 244.

She doesn't take HMT & she has a Violin Grade 5 cert (much more talented than loser me 8D). But AHS has no strings so we can't use CCA as an option. D:

Mummy is considering appealing to AHS if she doesn't make it there.

It is evidently impossible to pull strings because at least half the teachers hate me (I guess). =D

I don't like how I used to be in AHS..:/ I think IP gave me a broader perspective on what stuff in life are all about.. much less emo culture like AHS. o.o YAY IP~ =D

Anyw must tell her to get a good CCA if she makes it to AHS. (:

most of the good teacher have left, but AHS is still better than TKGS & CCHS and that's the only few better options if you get 241.

So anyone who knows more about appealing into AHS pleasepleaseplease contact me I will love you as much as I love skipping dinner YAY thank you!

Audrey gives you a !MEGAHUG =D

2009-11-27T01:38:00.005+08:00

what lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.

when your heart wants to do what you shouldn't.

dlt, aud has her share of downdowndownnn times 8D.

27o11o9

YAY BABY CHRISTMAS IS APPROACHING (!) =D

I bought my presents early, HAH. but I need to buy birthday presents ~~and am totally clueless about what to get.~~ 8D

super sian I asdfjkl want to go & sleep!

Okay this time I blogged for valid reasons HAHAHA 8D

Thank you Chunnie & Jo for the awesomezx ttm exercise we did at Far East today, yayyy~ new dresses !SPAZZSPAZZ =D

training was bad yesterday. )):

I will sleep early from now on. even though I don't feel like it. I will stop calling/answering calls after 1am every night especially when there's rock. I will stop procrastinating. )): boo, training was really terrible it was disappointing.

I'm very hungry. ):

okay I really need to sleep now, I've been having 4hr of sleep each night it's a miracle I survived this week. next week's gna be worse fo' sho. boo I'm going to gg for training alr :/

Things I need to do while I attempt to stay awake.

1. Attempt to stay awake.

2. Be pissed off at everyone wearing contacts that increases the size of their eyes. now everyone has big and chio eyes, annoying DD<

3. Use my superpower to clear my desk up.

4. Wait for Nobuta Wo Produce to hurry loading & obsess over Yamapi at the meantime. Yay buzzer Beat ended with a Buzzer Beat HAHAHAH.

5. Try to sleep.

Ernest Lim I am on the verge of strangling you with a fork. D: